Depression, anxiety, stress and other related issues

[Norman]

23 hours ago, coneheadjohn said:

I’ve seen some pretty grim stuff in hospitals over the years but the thought of having a stranger dress my misters made little John retreat and hide in the pubes☹️,glad you’re out and thanks on Joel.

I had only got my ball bag out to girlfriends up until my operation and infection. Must have had 20 people have a look including a training group of junior doctors inside of 2 weeks.

Now I just whip my ball bag out whenever. ?

[Day]

5 minutes ago, Norman said:

I had only got my ball bag out to girlfriends up until my operation and infection. Must have had 20 people have a look including a training group of junior doctors inside of 2 weeks.

Now I just whip my ball bag out whenever. ?

Not on here please, we don’t want to see it. Thanks.

[Norman]

21 minutes ago, David said:

Not on here please, we don’t want to see it. Thanks.

Will private message.

[Day]

1 minute ago, Norman said:

Will private message.

Will block.

[Coneheadjohn]

34 minutes ago, Norman said:

I had only got my ball bag out to girlfriends up until my operation and infection. Must have had 20 people have a look including a training group of junior doctors inside of 2 weeks.

Now I just whip my ball bag out whenever. ?

You can’t do it anymore mate,something else Jimmy Saville has spoilt.

[sage]

On ‎21‎/‎12‎/‎2018 at 11:09, AshfieldRam said:

Hello all, 

It's hard to post this but this week has been possibly the worst my mental health has ever been. I recently posted in another thread about wanting to make 2019 positive but ever since Saturday i've gone downhill so so fast. 

I had a little worry, It started as a minor worry, then it developed inside me to a concern, the grew larger and larger into a huge obsession that i couldn't shift and consequently i found myself at the doors of depression. 

I started taking my Citalopram on Saturday but it hasn't yet kicked in. On Monday, i was in absolute hysteric floods of tears crying to my Mum and Dad and since then the floodgates have definitely opened. My mum gave me a Diazepam to help calm me down but this just made me dizzy and sick before eventually having a calming effect late on in evening.

Tuesday i went in to work as normal at about 2:30 my boss told me to get home and rest because i looked very ill. I went to play football in the evening as i always do on Tuesday but this proved extremely difficult. I thought the exercise and fresh air would do me wonders but inside all i was doing was fixating on my problems. Despite nearly passing out 3 times i managed to make it through. After another cry to my parents i managed 6 hours sleep.

Wednesday i was able to see the doctor. He gave me more tablets and some numbers for CBT therapy providers in the local area. I immediately rang them and was quite shocked just how long the process can take and one of them was charging quite a considerable amount.

Wednesday evening as i attempted to try to be active to my mind of things i panicked and fainted for a good few minutes. After coming round i was take to my bed where again, i found myself in floods of tears being consoled by Girlfriend, Mum and Dad.  

Yesterday morning i woke up very early again. 4:45 to be exact. I dragged my duvet down stairs hoping that a change of scenery may help. I went to take my tablet in the morning as i've started doing and then i got really really scared. I looked at these tablets and though 'Why don't i just take loads of them and then i won't have to feel like this anymore?' So i took one, then took a second one straight after. I started Vomiting almost immediately afterwards, panicking and deep breathing. Before i knew, i had fainted once again only to be found by my Mum. Once i had come round, my vomiting continued and my thoughts worsened about just taking more tablets to stop me feeling bad or anything all together. I was taken straight to the hospital and given a number of physical tests that all came back positive so i was allowed to come home. I hadn't at this point mentioned to the hospital or anyone that i was feeling suicidal.  As the afternoon progresses my mood swung again, up and down and up and down again. Eventually i was again hysterical and i decided that i had to tell my parents that i'd worried about ending things that morning if i could. I explained to them that i felt like a constant failure and that peoples life would be easier without me there. I don't think i've ever cried as much as i did yesterday. I had the same conversation with my girlfriend that evening and it absolutely destroyed me saying what i said but i was and still am scared that i will do something stupid. My dad rang one of the metal health helplines and i explained to them what was happening in my mind and they marked me as 'critical' meaning i needed immediate help. They eventually rang and they were absolutely no help what so ever. The earliest they could see me was Saturday afternoon and despite my girlfriend pleading with the man on the phone that i needed immediate help he just said 'Saturday afternoon' then shut down the conversation to hang up. I was left in the darkest hole i think i could possibly have been in and if it wasn't for the people around me i don't know what i would have done. 

I actually began to improve last night and decided that this morning i would come in to work and get myself some routine back. I have done and so far i'm just about on top of my emotions but even the littlest things feels like it could set me off. 

Christmas is my favourite time of the year and i can't even think about it. I just want to be better for it so the people who are around me can enjoy it too. 

I'm sorry for the essay but i thought writing it down might help and i'm hopeful that i can be on the mend soon and one day look back on it with the experience to help others

 

Citalopram often makes things feel worse for a week before the effect kicks in. You may also suffer 30 minutes of anxiety after each pill too. 

[Rev]

40 minutes ago, Norman said:

I had only got my ball bag out to girlfriends up until my operation and infection. Must have had 20 people have a look including a training group of junior doctors inside of 2 weeks.

Now I just whip my ball bag out whenever. ?

Yeah it's weird how years of reserve just fall away in days, I'm even letting the nurse take pictures of it now!

Give it a couple more days and I'll probably not bother with trousers and pants anymore.

[Coneheadjohn]

9 minutes ago, reveldevil said:

Yeah it's weird how years of reserve just fall away in days, I'm even letting the nurse take pictures of it now!

Give it a couple more days and I'll probably not bother with trousers and pants anymore.

It???

So they did take one out?

[Day]

15 minutes ago, reveldevil said:

I'm even letting the nurse take pictures of it now!

[Rev]

2 hours ago, coneheadjohn said:

It???

So they did take one out?

No idea.

She did look at me funny when I asked her to send me a copy, and to make sure she got my knee in the photo though!

That'll be another thread taken down, I suppose.

Edited December 23, 2018 by reveldevil

[RamNut]

@reveldevil

 

Get your sack out Santa. 

Edited December 23, 2018 by RamNut

[Rev]

2 hours ago, RamNut said:

@reveldevil

 

Get your sack out Santa. 

I tried my best, but no matter how much I reduced the picture quality, the file was much too large to upload!

It's both a blessing and a curse, I suppose.

[sage]

Who else has been put off buying nuts this Christmas?

[Coneheadjohn]

@Moist One @AshfieldRam hope you are both ok?

[DarkFruitsRam7]

I’ve had an unusual 2018. I worked incredibly hard for my A-Level results that got me a place at the University of Manchester, where I’ve met some great mates. I had a great summer due to the national team’s heroics and Derby are shaping up nicely this term.

However, I got hit with some upsetting family news in the summer (World Cup Final day) which has affected, and will continue to affect, my whole world, none more so than today. I bloody love Christmas but today, due to the aforementioned news, was rather subdued and disappointing compared to the typically lively family affair.

This has led me to drink a fair few whiskeys and gins after everyone has gone to bed in order to improve the day. During this little session, I had a good chat (via video call) with my mates and I’m feeling much better now.

I don’t really know what I’m trying to get at with this post, and I know that many are going through far greater difficulties than me (thankfully, I’ve never had issues with mental health) but I thought this was the best place to get things off my chest, particularly because the people on this forum are absolutely fantastic and like a second family to me (@coneheadjohn and @angieram in particular). 

I will regret this post tomorrow morning when I read this as a sober man but, in my mellow state, I feel like it is important to get things off my chest, particularly when I haven’t been able to offload my worries (regarding the family news) to anybody since I found out (I’m the only one in my immediate family who hasn’t told anyone). To all who read this post, I doubt it makes any sense.

Anyway, I really do love this forum. I know that I’m usually a happy-clapping, Dark Fruits-drinking, joke-making poster but nobody’s life is perfect; including mine. 

I hope everyone had a great Christmas and I expect you all to be looking out for me on the telly as I cheer on the mighty Rams at Bramall Lane tomorrow.

Up the ducking Rams.

[angieram]

6 hours ago, BurtonRam7 said:

I’ve had an unusual 2018. I worked incredibly hard for my A-Level results that got me a place at the University of Manchester, where I’ve met some great mates. I had a great summer due to the national team’s heroics and Derby are shaping up nicely this term.

However, I got hit with some upsetting family news in the summer (World Cup Final day) which has affected, and will continue to affect, my whole world, none more so than today. I bloody love Christmas but today, due to the aforementioned news, was rather subdued and disappointing compared to the typically lively family affair.

This has led me to drink a fair few whiskeys and gins after everyone has gone to bed in order to improve the day. During this little session, I had a good chat (via video call) with my mates and I’m feeling much better now.

I don’t really know what I’m trying to get at with this post, and I know that many are going through far greater difficulties than me (thankfully, I’ve never had issues with mental health) but I thought this was the best place to get things off my chest, particularly because the people on this forum are absolutely fantastic and like a second family to me (@coneheadjohn and @angieram in particular). 

I will regret this post tomorrow morning when I read this as a sober man but, in my mellow state, I feel like it is important to get things off my chest, particularly when I haven’t been able to offload my worries (regarding the family news) to anybody since I found out (I’m the only one in my immediate family who hasn’t told anyone). To all who read this post, I doubt it makes any sense.

Anyway, I really do love this forum. I know that I’m usually a happy-clapping, Dark Fruits-drinking, joke-making poster but nobody’s life is perfect; including mine. 

I hope everyone had a great Christmas and I expect you all to be looking out for me on the telly as I cheer on the mighty Rams at Bramall Lane tomorrow.

Up the ducking Rams.

However you are feeling,  it's always best to share with others. If you can't talk about it with family, talk here or find a friendly support officer at uni - they all have them nowadays. 

I know you won't want to hear this either but the alcohol is only a temporary dampener and actually lowers rather than improves the way you're feeling over time. Good food, fresh air, walks and friends are much better long term props to your well-being. 

Right, nagging over! 

I hope whatever is affecting you is better soon. Even if it isn't try and be there for the people affected - you can support each other through this.

And enjoy the game today! I always look out for you when I know you're going but never spotted you yet. COYR! 

[DarkFruitsRam7]

2 hours ago, angieram said:

I know you won't want to hear this either but the alcohol is only a temporary dampener and actually lowers rather than improves the way you're feeling over time. Good food, fresh air, walks and friends are much better long term props to your well-being. 

Thanks Angie.

You might find this difficult to believe, but I’m actually quite sensible with alcohol. Last night was genuinely the first time I’ve ever drunk to make myself feel better when I’ve been down, as I know that it won’t usually make me feel better.

However, it did work last night because it allowed me to initiate a conversation with my mates that really perked me up (therefore, I suppose, it helped me indirectly and not directly). It’s definitely not going to become a regular coping mechanism, but I will look back on Christmas 2018 in a much more positive light due to my late-night antics.

Hopefully our luck will change and I’ll finally see you today! Up the Rams.

[King Kevin]

On 23/12/2018 at 14:00, Norman said:

I had only got my ball bag out to girlfriends up until my operation and infection. Must have had 20 people have a look including a training group of junior doctors inside of 2 weeks.

Now I just whip my ball bag out whenever. ?

It pays to advertise.

[Ramslad1992]

15 hours ago, BurtonRam7 said:

I’ve had an unusual 2018. I worked incredibly hard for my A-Level results that got me a place at the University of Manchester, where I’ve met some great mates. I had a great summer due to the national team’s heroics and Derby are shaping up nicely this term.

However, I got hit with some upsetting family news in the summer (World Cup Final day) which has affected, and will continue to affect, my whole world, none more so than today. I bloody love Christmas but today, due to the aforementioned news, was rather subdued and disappointing compared to the typically lively family affair.

This has led me to drink a fair few whiskeys and gins after everyone has gone to bed in order to improve the day. During this little session, I had a good chat (via video call) with my mates and I’m feeling much better now.

I don’t really know what I’m trying to get at with this post, and I know that many are going through far greater difficulties than me (thankfully, I’ve never had issues with mental health) but I thought this was the best place to get things off my chest, particularly because the people on this forum are absolutely fantastic and like a second family to me (@coneheadjohn and @angieram in particular). 

I will regret this post tomorrow morning when I read this as a sober man but, in my mellow state, I feel like it is important to get things off my chest, particularly when I haven’t been able to offload my worries (regarding the family news) to anybody since I found out (I’m the only one in my immediate family who hasn’t told anyone). To all who read this post, I doubt it makes any sense.

Anyway, I really do love this forum. I know that I’m usually a happy-clapping, Dark Fruits-drinking, joke-making poster but nobody’s life is perfect; including mine. 

I hope everyone had a great Christmas and I expect you all to be looking out for me on the telly as I cheer on the mighty Rams at Bramall Lane tomorrow.

Up the ducking Rams.

Never try and drink your feelings away buddy... it’s a slippery slope! talking is the best way, and this is the place to do it ? Never regret posting anything here (apart from the dark fruits stuff) hope everything is ok with your family mate ?

[Coneheadjohn]

On 26/12/2018 at 02:10, BurtonRam7 said:

I’ve had an unusual 2018. I worked incredibly hard for my A-Level results that got me a place at the University of Manchester, where I’ve met some great mates. I had a great summer due to the national team’s heroics and Derby are shaping up nicely this term.

However, I got hit with some upsetting family news in the summer (World Cup Final day) which has affected, and will continue to affect, my whole world, none more so than today. I bloody love Christmas but today, due to the aforementioned news, was rather subdued and disappointing compared to the typically lively family affair.

This has led me to drink a fair few whiskeys and gins after everyone has gone to bed in order to improve the day. During this little session, I had a good chat (via video call) with my mates and I’m feeling much better now.

I don’t really know what I’m trying to get at with this post, and I know that many are going through far greater difficulties than me (thankfully, I’ve never had issues with mental health) but I thought this was the best place to get things off my chest, particularly because the people on this forum are absolutely fantastic and like a second family to me (@coneheadjohn and @angieram in particular). 

I will regret this post tomorrow morning when I read this as a sober man but, in my mellow state, I feel like it is important to get things off my chest, particularly when I haven’t been able to offload my worries (regarding the family news) to anybody since I found out (I’m the only one in my immediate family who hasn’t told anyone). To all who read this post, I doubt it makes any sense.

Anyway, I really do love this forum. I know that I’m usually a happy-clapping, Dark Fruits-drinking, joke-making poster but nobody’s life is perfect; including mine. 

I hope everyone had a great Christmas and I expect you all to be looking out for me on the telly as I cheer on the mighty Rams at Bramall Lane tomorrow.

Up the ducking Rams.

Sorry it’s took me a few hours to get back to you.

If you ever feel like that mate send us a message.