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3 hours ago, reveldevil said:

New forum feature - Guess what I ate last night, based on the washing up.

Ignore the glass casserole dish, that was used to serve mash.

The only prize is pride.

Spaghetti Handwash?

5 hours ago, AmericanRam said:

My gal and I enjoying some Hibachi☺?

Is it legal? 

Fine lines in the type of matters being referred to immediately above. Some poor bloke (in front of his 14 yo son) was stabbed to his death last week in Guildford.  His killer’s opening gambit in court today was:

"Innocent until proven guilty," adding: "I'm paranoid. I'm hearing voices."

Not sure this is the thread for opening up this wider debate however.

2 hours ago, ronnieronalde said:

The book really is the gift that keeps on giving. duck me but times like this I wish I'd never met Brian at all never mind picked up a pen to write about it. I'd have been better of as that shitty little kid running away from everyone. At least then I knew who I could trust. No-one.

Kick after kick after kick. Maybe it's karma. I certainly deserve some of it. For someone who keeps trying to convince himself he's a decent lad, something is clearly not stacking up.

If this latest "partner" pulls the plug I'm going to be emailing the few of you who gave me support an email copy of the book, a thank you card and whatever cash you gave. I've honestly had enough, I'm sure the few of you who gave me cash, probably feel the same way.

At least it'll be a limited edition, very limited, there are 37 of you and 19 of those are family and ex family who probably didn't even want a copy in the first place.

I'll know by January 3rd, maybe earlier and if it goes the way I'm expecting, then I'm off for that long walk I promised myself I'd go on once it was out. Somewhere, anywhere warm, dry and even quieter than where I am now.

Considering I've physically spoken to two people since December 18th, and one of those was the food bank vicar, it's going to be a special place I need to find!!

Life, brutal and full of traps, christmas or not.

Sorry to read this latest chapter Ronnie. I am very lucky to have a loving, close family, and one good friend who helps me cope with the anxiety that l regularly suffer from. A week in Tenerife with the wife has just been a fantastic tonic, but as time rushes headlong towards the 2nd of January l am again finding myself heading to familiar “anxiety territory”. Most fortunately, which l am very grateful for, my life has not been brutal or full of traps so l know even when I am at really low points how lucky l am compared to a good many. I hope 2019 brings you more than just sun and solitude. I wish peace of mind for you as l do for myself. Take care.

5 minutes ago, reveldevil said:

Not too bad, apart from the packing/dressing changes.

Came out of hospital last night, so at least I'm not spending my birthday in hospital!

Dosing up on the morphine now ready for the district nurses visit.

Hope Joel's picking up with the antibiotics, and you can enjoy Christmas together.

Don’t go to hard with the morphine Rev. A visit from the district nurse merits some sexual stirrings even with unfeasibly large testicles. Let me know if she comes on a bicycle.

Another uncomfortable read - l hope the break over Christmas helps you @AshfieldRam and that your Saturday appointment offers you some immediate relief.

Wishing everyone on here a merry Christmas, but particularly those who l often find in here.  Stay strong brothers, and Lambchop.

5 hours ago, Moist One said:

I started this thread 3 years ago cos I realised I was in a very low place, but wasn't sure how low I was, and how much lower I could manage. Sadly, I'm back in a similar place and have been for a month or so, except I'm struggling to find any comfort in self-awareness or knowledge that others are suffering similar.

I've tried to avoid burdening anyone with my feelings over the last month, but am hoping writing it down on here might help, so apologies in advance. I'm in a situation where I am having a daily battle with myself. These battles used to be annual, then monthly, then fortnightly, then non-existent, and they're basically a "what's the point?", and being candid, they've been a give yourself a reason to live internal conversation. The bit I'm realising is that many of my reasons are based on fantasy, ******** and delusion at the moment. Silly things like "you might fall in love and live happily ever after!"!!

What's been quite saddening, but I accept, is that friends I used to rely on can no longer be relied on for anything. Simply as they have other issues to deal with, Mortgages, Weddings, Babies, Family Illnesses, Work issues etc, so I cannot expect them to drop anything just to pander to my neediness.

I drew parallels to Ronnie's post recently, scarily so. In recent months, my only positive has been work, and knowing that I'm doing a banging quality job, or so I thought. I had the wind knocked out of my sales recently, having discovered my manager isn't actually aware of what I am doing and would quite happily see me down the road. Things came to a head, and I won a little battle (that I didn't want) to save my job. But not without a few weeks of feeling very isolated, lonely and victimised.

Over the last few years, those I consider friends have declined almost all invitations to visit or spend time with me, always with reasons I might add, but nevertheless, I've eventually began to take it personally, even if not intentional rejection. Every attempt to get together as a group is just a stressful waste of time, and the reasons they've given to not be able to attend have been quite surprising, and I've taken that as me being way down on the list of priorities.

I went off the radar a few weeks ago. Literally made myself uncontactable. Deleted Whatsapp, Snapchat etc, didn't tweet, didn't post here or anywhere else, and just worked, and went home. I cannot explain why I did this, but eventually people guilted me into getting involved in things. I wrote a lengthy explanation to 20 mates making them aware of what I was going through, and on the whole they responded supportively. I spent a few weeks trying to force myself to be more positive, but the fact that these supportive friends have just carried on being somewhat neglective and ignorant, knowing what I was feeling, has left me feeling doubly negative.

Christmas is never a great time for me, I have always felt lonely and isolated, but that doesn't usually hit me this hard. I've never felt so isolated and emotional, and pointless and worthless and demotivated for life as I do right now. I'm at the stage where the only reason I haven't ended my life is cos it would kill my grandma. She is ill as it is. I've even nearly thought it wouldn't matter as she is ill anyway, so my going wouldn't really matter.

I've recently had a mini-meltdown and told a circle of friends that I'm sick of begging for attention so I will leave them alone, and they should leave me alone. I thought that would be hurtful and I'd be sad, but I'm not. It just gives me the freedom to do what I want without any guilt. Another circle of friends are making me feel like doing similar with them, and if that happens, I will be totally isolated and friendless and the sad thing is that I think I want this.

Hard to read, even more difficult to know how to respond. I can only say l feel your pain, and wish you stronger and in a better place very soon. Today, spilling to us, will hopefully be a positive kickstart for you.

p.s. Perhaps now might be a good time to change your username again.  Moist One is ironically an anagram of Emotions.

6 minutes ago, Zag zig said:

Small gander to Ronnie Scott’s with a left, right and left.

The political leanings of your companions are of no interest to this forum.

Sad to just learn that Pete has passed away. Big fan of the Buzzcocks, and it is a shock that l won’t see him perform again. Great memories of numerous gigs over the years. 

40 minutes ago, froggg said:

Birds eye view of where?

Looks like the top of West Cliff Bournemouth, but there is no homeless person on the pavement so I am probably wrong.

35 minutes ago, rynny said:

They are normally all in one notification. 

Thanks Rynny. Those are the ones, but didn’t get any notifications.  Not overly worried; just a bit concerned that Boycie and his mate Code Zero had been given the keys again.

Not a big problem, but l had a notification of a ‘like’ earlier, which when l looked at the post l noted others had liked too but without any notification (all yesterday morning). No big problem but it would disappoint me if l were not get any of RoyMac’s rolling eyes emojis ?

3 hours ago, David said:

Tap water tastes awful, I challenge you to a blindfold taste test. 

Why do l need to wear a blindfold to drink two similar glasses of water?  What’s your game David?

11 hours ago, David said:

On the Evian tonight, 1.5lt and no hangover in the morning ?

I like water too. Happy to drink it out of a tap though. Did you know Evian is Naive spelt backwards?

59 minutes ago, Steve How Hard? said:

Pardon my ignorance but what is in the silver pot in the centre?

Spoon mate. Great with soups.

9 minutes ago, Lambchop said:

I'm probably not his type, but we like the same pubs.

Female, pulse (optional). You’re his type don’t worry.

47 minutes ago, Lambchop said:

Wouldn't mind trying that grand reserve plum porter. It's on my bucket list to visit, just waiting for an invite from @sage.

You’ve pulled Sage!  Have a great time you two, but please no pictures of knees in the back of Lambchop’s van.

50 minutes ago, richinspain said:

Not dangling your maggot yet?

He could be under that blanket  ?

49 minutes ago, froggg said:

 

I look forward to seeing this in the “what are you eating tonight” thread.

26 minutes ago, Boycie said:

As my mate Lionel Richie once told me at dinner,

Roast them once, twice, three times and gravy.

Did he call you round when he was fed up with wall mounted lights at his pad?  Bet he did.

Oh what a feeling, Boycie’s wired a lamp thing on the ceiling.

1 hour ago, Boycie said:

May I say that @OwenB87 commentary was very good tonight.

Not afraid to leave pauses whilst the ball is in play. Mr Edworthy complements him well too.

Well done to both of you.

The studio seems a lot brighter too. I don’t know if it’s lit differently or my device was set too low last time.

I believe in giving praise as well as criticism.

Well done to the RamsTv team. 

<Cringe>

Just now, eddie said:

Currently sipping a glass of Hanssens Artisanaal Oude Gueuze. Utterly sublime.

Sounds like something you should be painting your shed with.

2 hours ago, Boycie said:

Mate, she’s 40 I see.

Hope you can keep a Cougar happy pal. ??

Is that 2 cats shagging in the background?

Is that Grant and Phil Mitchell hiding in the foreground?

1 hour ago, Steve How Hard? said:

Conservatively speaking, you have been quite liberal in your interpretation. I laboured to think of that analogoly so now I'm off for a kip, how about u?

Monster response, you raving loony.

8 hours ago, Lambchop said:

In the pub. Just about coped with the Zydeco music. 

Nice picture. An acidic, slightly bitter, old sauce, and a bottle of Sarsons ?