Depression, anxiety, stress and other related issues

[Norman]

10 hours ago, HuddersRam said:

Been a while since I contributed to this thread and things have changed just a tiny bit since I did back in January.

Diagnosed with depression by the doctor back at the start of April and put on Fluoxetine. I've been going through counselling talking therapy sessions as well, stupidly thinking things would turn around quickly.

Unsurprisingly they're not and since starting medication, I've felt even worse. I've had horrible feelings of guilt which have been racking my brain and body on a daily basis. Countless times a day I'll break down in tears no matter where I am, just struggling to comprehend the mess I've got myself into. Broke my own record today with seven separate trips to the bathroom stalls.

I've got a girlfriend who I love to bits and she knows everything I'm going through and is being incredibly supportive. But over the last few days, I've noticed that I don't really feel anything when it comes to love or passion. I've read about the side effects of Anti-depressants and how they can take away emotions and feelings and I'm terrified they're going to ruin the best thing I have ever had with her - all because I'm not thinking properly.

My mind is constantly telling me I'm a bad person and regularly makes things up to further put the point across. These I could just about deal with, but it's as if it's trying to now turn me against the person I love the most. I've vowed to come off the medication because they've made me feel worse than I ever imagined I could - suicidal thoughts and feelings of worthlessness. I've been on them for six weeks and can't face them for a day more before I do or say something stupid. For me personally, I'd rather take the feelings I had before than have my own mind lie to me and feel nothing.

It's a really strange situation to be in is depression. I always thought it was something that was easily treatable - "oh it's only the mind, it's easy to control" sort of thing. I now realise mental illnesses are the most horrendous things you can get. Has anybody else had these sort of side effects from the pills?

Just please keep talking, mate. Even if it's on here. There's nothing to fear in posting in this thread. We're strangers, i know, but if we care, then think how much your girlfriend will.

Believe me.

[Coneheadjohn]

20 hours ago, HuddersRam said:

Been a while since I contributed to this thread and things have changed just a tiny bit since I did back in January.

Diagnosed with depression by the doctor back at the start of April and put on Fluoxetine. I've been going through counselling talking therapy sessions as well, stupidly thinking things would turn around quickly.

Unsurprisingly they're not and since starting medication, I've felt even worse. I've had horrible feelings of guilt which have been racking my brain and body on a daily basis. Countless times a day I'll break down in tears no matter where I am, just struggling to comprehend the mess I've got myself into. Broke my own record today with seven separate trips to the bathroom stalls.

I've got a girlfriend who I love to bits and she knows everything I'm going through and is being incredibly supportive. But over the last few days, I've noticed that I don't really feel anything when it comes to love or passion. I've read about the side effects of Anti-depressants and how they can take away emotions and feelings and I'm terrified they're going to ruin the best thing I have ever had with her - all because I'm not thinking properly.

My mind is constantly telling me I'm a bad person and regularly makes things up to further put the point across. These I could just about deal with, but it's as if it's trying to now turn me against the person I love the most. I've vowed to come off the medication because they've made me feel worse than I ever imagined I could - suicidal thoughts and feelings of worthlessness. I've been on them for six weeks and can't face them for a day more before I do or say something stupid. For me personally, I'd rather take the feelings I had before than have my own mind lie to me and feel nothing.

It's a really strange situation to be in is depression. I always thought it was something that was easily treatable - "oh it's only the mind, it's easy to control" sort of thing. I now realise mental illnesses are the most horrendous things you can get. Has anybody else had these sort of side effects from the pills?

Well done for posting mate.

My eldest was on 3 different ones,Fluoxetine been one,we can't remember the others.

I can honestly say they didn't do him any favours.

After he had majory surgery in 2016 which went wrong,he decided to take matters into his own hands and had a serious attempt at taking his life because he couldn't face being ill anymore.Fortunately I found him and after a week in hospital he was ok.

I sat him down and explained to him that if he did it he would take us all with him because we loved him so much.

Mental illness is a terrible thing and I don't have any answers mate,but I do know that coming on here and talking about stuff helps.

Caring bunch on here.

Keep us posted mate and good luck.

You're not on your own.

[Coneheadjohn]

11 hours ago, Norman said:

Just please keep talking, mate. Even if it's on here. There's nothing to fear in posting in this thread. We're strangers, i know, but if we care, then think how much your girlfriend will.

Believe me.

Are you doing ok mate?

[Norman]

1 minute ago, coneheadjohn said:

Are you doing ok mate?

Yes thanks, mate. But you wouldn't believe my final diagnosis.

To cut a long, drawn out story short...

I did a lot of weights for headspace time, and the fact I like being on my own. And its supposed to be good for beating depression.

I got pretty big, but then had a tough period, which is when I cried out for help on here. To get big I had to eat protein and I ate loads of tuna. 2 tins a day, actually.

I went to the doctors with lethargy and suspected depression, again, earlier this year. Blood tests taken as a precaution showed up problems. Went to a specialist, been diagnosed with mercury poisoning from the tuna.

So the hobby I used to beat my depression was actually making me more depressed and killing me lol.

I'm feeling much better now. But the way my head worked during those really dark times earlier this year makes me now help anybody I can. It was a ******* eye opener. 

To all those who commented and showed they cared at the time was ******* brilliant. I posted my original post and then logged off fearing I would be reacted to negatively. 

I thank @Mostyn6 in my head everytime this thread reemerges. It gave me the strength to find out answers and get better. And to everyone who responded first time.

So to the poster today, if you're reading. Hang in there, mate. Take the boost you might get from people listening and understanding how you feel, and use it. Whether it gives you the energy to get through tomorrow or to get back to the doctors. Just keep talking. We will be here.

[HuddersRam]

Thanks for the messages all. I've got an appointment tomorrow AM with my doctor which will hopefully add a bit of clarity to things. I knew I was coming down with depression in around December time but left it until April to get the diagnosis. The sadness I could deal with but the intrusive thoughts and doubts about my relationship are something different altogether. I've felt absolutely empty all day today and just don't know how to get better.

I've got people around me to speak to and am seeing a counsellor but as of yet, nothing's really changed. I don't really know what depression feels like exactly but I think there might be a few more issues than just that unfortunately. I've got a girlfriend I love to bits who loves me and will be there for me, I just pray I don't end up forcing her away and ruining everything.

[Coneheadjohn]

9 hours ago, Norman said:

Yes thanks, mate. But you wouldn't believe my final diagnosis.

To cut a long, drawn out story short...

I did a lot of weights for headspace time, and the fact I like being on my own. And its supposed to be good for beating depression.

I got pretty big, but then had a tough period, which is when I cried out for help on here. To get big I had to eat protein and I ate loads of tuna. 2 tins a day, actually.

I went to the doctors with lethargy and suspected depression, again, earlier this year. Blood tests taken as a precaution showed up problems. Went to a specialist, been diagnosed with mercury poisoning from the tuna.

So the hobby I used to beat my depression was actually making me more depressed and killing me lol.

I'm feeling much better now. But the way my head worked during those really dark times earlier this year makes me now help anybody I can. It was a ******* eye opener. 

To all those who commented and showed they cared at the time was ******* brilliant. I posted my original post and then logged off fearing I would be reacted to negatively. 

I thank @Mostyn6 in my head everytime this thread reemerges. It gave me the strength to find out answers and get better. And to everyone who responded first time.

So to the poster today, if you're reading. Hang in there, mate. Take the boost you might get from people listening and understanding how you feel, and use it. Whether it gives you the energy to get through tomorrow or to get back to the doctors. Just keep talking. We will be here.

Bloody hell,that's scary.

I bet you felt better for the training though?I've solved some pretty important problems in my head whilst bench pressing,jogging or whatever.

You sound much more positive,which is fantastic.

[LesterRam]

On ‎05‎/‎06‎/‎2017 at 23:07, HuddersRam said:

Been a while since I contributed to this thread and things have changed just a tiny bit since I did back in January.

Diagnosed with depression by the doctor back at the start of April and put on Fluoxetine. I've been going through counselling talking therapy sessions as well, stupidly thinking things would turn around quickly.

Unsurprisingly they're not and since starting medication, I've felt even worse. I've had horrible feelings of guilt which have been racking my brain and body on a daily basis. Countless times a day I'll break down in tears no matter where I am, just struggling to comprehend the mess I've got myself into. Broke my own record today with seven separate trips to the bathroom stalls.

I've got a girlfriend who I love to bits and she knows everything I'm going through and is being incredibly supportive. But over the last few days, I've noticed that I don't really feel anything when it comes to love or passion. I've read about the side effects of Anti-depressants and how they can take away emotions and feelings and I'm terrified they're going to ruin the best thing I have ever had with her - all because I'm not thinking properly.

My mind is constantly telling me I'm a bad person and regularly makes things up to further put the point across. These I could just about deal with, but it's as if it's trying to now turn me against the person I love the most. I've vowed to come off the medication because they've made me feel worse than I ever imagined I could - suicidal thoughts and feelings of worthlessness. I've been on them for six weeks and can't face them for a day more before I do or say something stupid. For me personally, I'd rather take the feelings I had before than have my own mind lie to me and feel nothing.

It's a really strange situation to be in is depression. I always thought it was something that was easily treatable - "oh it's only the mind, it's easy to control" sort of thing. I now realise mental illnesses are the most horrendous things you can get. Has anybody else had these sort of side effects from the pills?

I will also disparage you from continuing on Fluoxetine, nasty medication that I am surprised still holds a license.

[Animal is a Ram]

Amazes me that Fluoxetine is still in circulation. Have heard nothing positive said about it.

 

[LesterRam]

I had a terrible day yesterday, my little ones terminally ill friend came around yesterday to play on the Xbox..

What a difference four months makes, he was full of life like your average 11 year old lad and now he looks like a 90 year old waiting for God, the ******* cancer has sucked every little bit of life out of him, I was coping really well until he watched a BMW go by the house and he said "when I grow up I want a BMW M4", I replied to him that you can achieve absolutely anything you want, how brave and courageous you are right now you will always be a success in life.

Edited June 8, 2017 by LesterRam

[dcfcfan1]

Good job you all have girlfriends and a wife or someone you can talk to. Makes a big difference, I think having a female that you can trust (Apart from my mum, I never have) can help open you up as well, help you spit it all out and not feel ashamed to ask for help

[Day]

14 minutes ago, dcfcfan1 said:

Good job you all have girlfriends and a wife or someone you can talk to. Makes a big difference, I think having a female that you can trust (Apart from my mum, I never have) can help open you up as well, help you spit it all out and not feel ashamed to ask for help

Doesn't always make it easier, can be harder opening up to a loved one, especially as a man, we're supposed to be the tough ones!

[PistoldPete2]

On 6 June 2017 at 22:11, HuddersRam said:

Thanks for the messages all. I've got an appointment tomorrow AM with my doctor which will hopefully add a bit of clarity to things. I knew I was coming down with depression in around December time but left it until April to get the diagnosis. The sadness I could deal with but the intrusive thoughts and doubts about my relationship are something different altogether. I've felt absolutely empty all day today and just don't know how to get better.

I've got people around me to speak to and am seeing a counsellor but as of yet, nothing's really changed. I don't really know what depression feels like exactly but I think there might be a few more issues than just that unfortunately. I've got a girlfriend I love to bits who loves me and will be there for me, I just pray I don't end up forcing her away and ruining everything.

The bit about guilt I don't really get. I tend to look on the downside and fear the worst. But I don't think everything is my fault... I blame everyone else!

i suppose it comes down to personality. 

But ithe main thing to remember , for anyone  who like me , always looks on the downside, it really never is as bad as you think it is. 

[dcfcfan1]

1 hour ago, David said:

Doesn't always make it easier, can be harder opening up to a loved one, especially as a man, we're supposed to be the tough ones!

at least your good enough to get one

[Norman]

3 minutes ago, dcfcfan1 said:

at least your good enough to get one

It's like when my Dad said, " you don't want to shave boy, it's a nightmare"

And you think, nah, I'd like to grow facial hair. But he was right.

And hes been divorced twice, and his advice has stayed consistent.

[dcfcfan1]

15 minutes ago, Norman said:

It's like when my Dad said, " you don't want to shave boy, it's a nightmare"

And you think, nah, I'd like to grow facial hair. But he was right.

And hes been divorced twice, and his advice has stayed consistent.

I have good facial hair haha at least:P

[GboroRam]

On 6/6/2017 at 21:09, Norman said:

Yes thanks, mate. But you wouldn't believe my final diagnosis.

To cut a long, drawn out story short...

I did a lot of weights for headspace time, and the fact I like being on my own. And its supposed to be good for beating depression.

I got pretty big, but then had a tough period, which is when I cried out for help on here. To get big I had to eat protein and I ate loads of tuna. 2 tins a day, actually.

I went to the doctors with lethargy and suspected depression, again, earlier this year. Blood tests taken as a precaution showed up problems. Went to a specialist, been diagnosed with mercury poisoning from the tuna.

So the hobby I used to beat my depression was actually making me more depressed and killing me lol.

I'm feeling much better now. But the way my head worked during those really dark times earlier this year makes me now help anybody I can. It was a ******* eye opener. 

To all those who commented and showed they cared at the time was ******* brilliant. I posted my original post and then logged off fearing I would be reacted to negatively. 

I thank @Mostyn6 in my head everytime this thread reemerges. It gave me the strength to find out answers and get better. And to everyone who responded first time.

So to the poster today, if you're reading. Hang in there, mate. Take the boost you might get from people listening and understanding how you feel, and use it. Whether it gives you the energy to get through tomorrow or to get back to the doctors. Just keep talking. We will be here.

'Kin 'ell - I knew healthy lifestyles had to be bad for you! Glad you're on the mend.

[ramit]

i wish i could do as you fine folks, give good advice to those in need and be there for them.  i read what a troubled forum member writes and i want to help out and write something sensible or comforting but i just can't do it.  Have tried a few times but always deleted it.  i used to think it was because i am too self obsessed, some sort of psycho, that i don't really care about people, but i am understanding it better now, i don't feel i am worthy to give any advice or comfort, it feels fraudulent.  It's self loathing really. 

i am going through a tough couple of days now, hope it won't be much longer than that, it usually isn't.  It's just so frustrating, wanting to spread kindness and be supportive and being unable to.  i know it would also help me if i could do it. 

You who give of yourself to alleviate the pain of your fellow forum members, i admire you very much.  You possess a quality of great value.

 

[Sith Happens]

3 minutes ago, ramit said:

i wish i could do as you fine folks, give good advice to those in need and be there for them.  i read what a troubled forum member writes and i want to help out and write something sensible or comforting but i just can't do it.  Have tried a few times but always deleted it.  i used to think it was because i am too self obsessed, some sort of psycho, that i don't really care about people, but i am understanding it better now, i don't feel i am worthy to give any advice or comfort, it feels fraudulent.  It's self loathing really. 

i am going through a tough couple of days now, hope it won't be much longer than that, it usually isn't.  It's just so frustrating, wanting to spread kindness and be supportive and being unable to.  i know it would also help me if i could do it. 

You who give of yourself to alleviate the pain of your fellow forum members, i admire you very much.  You possess a quality of great value.

 

Sometimes its not easy to articulate what we feel. I'm rubbish at it.

We try and say the right things but often there is a fear we say the wrong thing or it comes across the wrong way. Its hard online as you don't see the emotion in text like you do in person.

You don't need to give words of wisdom, most of the time you can't. Just let them know you are thinking of them that's enough. 

This probably sounds like rambling, its late and I've had a couple of beers, i hope your tough time does improve, don't worry about sharing not matter how big or small you think the problem might be.

 

 

[Anag Ram]

7 hours ago, ramit said:

i wish i could do as you fine folks, give good advice to those in need and be there for them.  i read what a troubled forum member writes and i want to help out and write something sensible or comforting but i just can't do it.  Have tried a few times but always deleted it.  i used to think it was because i am too self obsessed, some sort of psycho, that i don't really care about people, but i am understanding it better now, i don't feel i am worthy to give any advice or comfort, it feels fraudulent.  It's self loathing really. 

i am going through a tough couple of days now, hope it won't be much longer than that, it usually isn't.  It's just so frustrating, wanting to spread kindness and be supportive and being unable to.  i know it would also help me if i could do it. 

You who give of yourself to alleviate the pain of your fellow forum members, i admire you very much.  You possess a quality of great value.

 

I don't think you could have explained how it feels more articulately than you have done in your post.

That sentiment would help anyone reading it or hearing it.

It's not words that heal - it's empathy.

[i-Ram]

9 hours ago, Paul71 said:

Sometimes its not easy to articulate what we feel. I'm rubbish at it.

We try and say the right things but often there is a fear we say the wrong thing or it comes across the wrong way. Its hard online as you don't see the emotion in text like you do in person.

You don't need to give words of wisdom, most of the time you can't. Just let them know you are thinking of them that's enough. 

In this regard Paul, on a good few occasions recently l have wanted to post something wise regarding your particular circumstances but failed miserably.  I have however thought of you lots, and l sincerely hope that things are on the up.