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Sounds like really promising progress. From personal experience CBT is an extremely powerful and productive tool and you should start to reap the benefits of it after the first few sessions. You should take immense pride in the fact that you've had the inner strength to go and seek out help yourself which you need to recognise as one footstep on your current road. 
I used to have terrible problems with rumination and negative thoughts and was taught various methods of dealing with it some very simplistic but powerful ones for example physically moving your hand infront of your face to symbolise pushing the negative thoughts out of your mind or wiping the thought blackboard clear. 
Remember to try and stay in contact with your friends and families especially more so during this lockdown, when I was at my lowest ebb I literally shut myself away, wouldn't answer the door or phone and cut myself off from all form of social interaction. It was a massive effort to reverse that so it's important that you try to maintain this human contact even if it's texting someone once a day or using this forum.
Keep us updated about your progress, have got no doubts that you'll make it, I know there's lots of people on here including myself rooting for you ?

Good timing, I've literally just watched the first episode of the 3rd series. Dark is probably the best thing ever, at least after 2 series and one episode!
I had a break between the 2nd and 3rd series as it's so good, I want to make it last longer. 

Try This is Us on Amazon. Very few people I know have seen it, but it highly addictive drama about a family.

I *think* I may have nicked this from the joke thread.

I dabble in screenwriting and have a writing partner who flits between Berlin and California. She recommended something called DARK to me which is a German show that's now on Netflix, with subtitles. I'm very busy at the moment, so just watched the first episode, but liked it a lot. Great atmosphere and sound design. It's in a remote German village where a kid has gone missing.
There's obviously going to be a fair amount of playing around with time as it proceeds (I think there are three series). In this first episode a young kid is doing a conjuring trick at the dinner table and someone asks him "how did you do that?" His response is something like, "The question isn't how did I do it. The question is when did I do it."
I fed back that I thought the show had very much the feel of a modern day Twin Peaks and my writing partner said that was exactly the vibe.

ZeroZeroZero, it’s definitely worth a watch if you like Narcos or Ozark etc

Just finished the Serpent. Thought it was great.

This is the nail on the head for me. I can only speak for myself, but exercise is my way out of low/dark moods. I’m currently typing this during a half time rest during a spinbike session (pedal to the whistle of the match!).
was in a rut in January. A vicious circle of no energy, no exercise, no rest! All affecting the other. 
 
For me though, had to build up to a positive change, so had a week of eating, drinking, binning the fizzy pop, carbs, goodies etc. 
 
so far in Feb, ive eaten only chicken, fish, salad, apples and bananas, oh and nuts to snack. Only drank water, milk and squash, and a mocha out of the machine at work. 
 
Ive had 3 big spin sessions. My sleeping is better, energy is better and as a byproduct my mood is much better. 

Just wished to make my self known in this thread and kudos to the thread starter. 
 
Suffered with Anxiety when I left the Army, I think it was always there, but leaving just accelerated the process . I mentioned on a post a while back that last year was my first Game at Pride Park in 5 years or so. I broke contact with all social media and friends as I  just could not fathom the process of people and crowds, the nerves I had driving in the car, seriously I contemplated turning back numerous times . I got to the ground 50 minutes before kick off and left 15 minutes before just so I could cut any sort of social interaction or anyone seeing me at all. I still suffer, I think I always will to be honest. But, that was the biggest achievement I could have ever made. Seeing my beloved Derby County in the flesh, my childhood team that I would follow home and away. It’ll always be a part of me, I know that. I’m still doing counselling and will be for a while (thank you to a certain Military Charity) and also thank you to Derby County’s supporter Liaison officer who made that game possible.   
I would love to help or speak to anyone I can regarding any problems they may have and most of all be a friend. 
 
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It may be a day late but yesterday was “time to talk day” so I thought I’d give this a nudge to the top of the list.
2020 was a tough year for everyone and I struggled for one reason or another.  A few times I’d typed a post in here to get things off my chest and ended up pressing delete.  I don’t know why - shame, embarrassment, worried my problems weren’t real issues or because I’m a bloke?  Who knows.  I ended up taking some time off work in December as I was struggling so much.  I felt trapped, stuck and unable to think clearly
I have to say having the time off was one of the best things I’ve done as most of my anxiety/stress was caused by work.  And that in itself was tough - just like I’d deleted posts, several times I put the phone down whilst waiting for the doctors receptionist to answer.  For the first time in years I was able to switch off, think about how I’d got myself to that place and, importantly, think about what I could do to solve it.  I’m now starting to see the wood for trees and I’m having CBT sessions for anxiety.
It’s a journey but I think I can now see a way forward.
If you do look at this, thanks for taking the time to read my post.  But most importantly, every day should be “time to talk” day.  And this time I didn’t press delete!!

Enjoy!

One episode to go. All the more compelling because it actually happened. 

Just finished the Serpent. Thought it was great.

I’ve checked out the menus and it does look right up our street. 
 
Our gaff is at the top of the hill, so we should have some belting views of sunsets. It fact it’s not far from Pig on The Hill according to Google Maps.
I know Lands End doesn’t have a lot to do, but it’s on of things to tick off.

I can recommend a cracking walk around Lynmouth. Voted one of the best in the UK. Basically walk upstream from the front, then after Watersmeet, turn left zig zagging through the woods, left across the moors to the cliff top, then left again along the cliff back to Lynmouth.
 

This is music to my ears ??
 
Had a look at The Pierhouse as we’d like somewhere with an outside, so we can take the dog, will definitely book it early doors. 
 
My Mrs used to go to Ilfracombe as a kid, so we’ll go there for the day. And I quite fancy Lynton and the Valley of Rocks for a wander round. Plus I’ve never been to Landsend, which is a bit of a trek but do fancy it

We were planning on Disney World in Florida this year with some friends, as we wanted to go before our lads got too old to appreciate it (they're in that 11-18 bracket where anything that isn't derivative hip-hop isn't cool), but seeing as the US is still a bigger poo-show than our country we're sticking to the UK.  Booked a newly built cottage in Westward Ho! in Devon for a week.  Looks a nice little beach town with plenty of open space for the dog, and a couple of arcades & crazy golf to keep the lad amused.  Counting down the days to August already...

No but may go to play off chasing Derby

Im that used to play for Leicester.

After a humbling day traveling through last years bushfire area, we are camping on a cliff face that is literally the edge of Australia in Merimbula NSW. Out there somewhere is New Zealand. Words can’t describe how huge this fire was and we have another day traveling through the area tommorow.
The reason we came down here is this area has been asking for people to bring a empty esky with them and buy local produce to help the towns survive, so we thought we come here and splash some cash.
 

Mandalorian made me watch all 9 Star Wars movies! 

Must be a difficult decision for young players and their families to make, especially if they are struggling financially in the first place.
4x salary is a big upgrade for anyone and if you really are that good, you could be playing for one if the top teams in the country within a couple of years.
But it also possibly means uprooting your family or having to do loads of travelling. You know your chances of getting into the first team at Derby are much higher/have already happened. You might even score a few goals this season and get a proper good contract, with either us or a bigger club who buys you.
What sort of money are kids on when they sign pro terms?

Watched The Mandalorian for the first time over Xmas. Not a huge Star Wars fan but was pleasantly surprised as to how engaged I became in the story from episode 1. 

Exactly the same as me. Was asked if I'd seen The Mandalorian before and watched it to begin with detached interest but became more and more engrossed in the series as it went on. 

Gets better the longer it goes on imo - by the end of season 2 its Star Wars nerd nirvana.  
My 'oh god you're not watching Star Wars again' wife felt similar to you.  Started off reading a book whilst I watched it on the tv, ended up looking forwards to each episode, watching them at 9am as soon as they became available!