HuddersRam

25 minutes is what it would have taken him to catch Oster up as he was moving so slowly and disinterestedly. 

Good luck - really enjoyed what I have read so far.
Did you ask Warren Barton why he didn’t bother chasing after that Grimsby player - John Oster?- in a 2-0 home defeat on Boxing Day, maybe. It is my overriding Memory of him - utter pap. Your classic last pay day kind of tenure. I didn’t rate him! 
Anyway, will look out for the book. Wish you all the best with it! 

Happy Friday one and all!
I should probably apologise in advance as I feel a little bit spammy, but I'm pretty excited to say that Pride (or Pride: The Inside Story of Derby County in the 21st Century to give it the full, far too long name) will be available from the club shop and online from this weekend!
Link - https://www.dcfcmegastore.co.uk/item/2865/Books/Pride-Na.html
For those who don't know, Pride is a project I've been working on for around three years in total, and it's seen me work with just over 60 former players, managers, chairmen, coaches and #ITK fans to tell the tale of the club from the moment we moved into Pride Park until the beginning of this year. It's not really a game by game account, it's more of a focus on each season, the on-field and off-field dramas (even the crash), all told by those who lived it from the inside. So to put the 60 people into context, it varies from the likes of Stefano Eranio, Steve McClaren and Warren Barton through to Gary Rowett, Harry Wilson, Giles Barnes, Inigo Idiakez and Jake Buxton.
The club have been extremely supportive and it's been a huge surprise to have them come on board, considering the content paints a factual tale, but they've been a huge help and it's fantastic to have them on board.
For anyone who has pre-ordered already - and a massive thank you for your interest in what began as just a daft little project to pass the time - what I'm going to recommend to people is that they cancel their pre-orders with Amazon and the likes, because hopefully money won't have been taken. Then the book will be available for around a week or two at the club and the megastore, before hitting the wider world. Unfortunately this one was out of my hands so I'm expecting a few pelters ?
I'll try not to spam too much but if anyone has any questions or comments on the book, what it's about or why certain people didn't make the cut, just reply or drop me a message. And most of all, for anyone who is keen and interested in understanding almost every major development and in-story of the club over 20+ years, I really hope you enjoy it. I'm on Twitter at @PrideDCFC where I'll be rambling to myself and sharing a few articles I've done over the past few months.
You might see/hear me a bit over the media over the next few weeks, so I'm always here to throw abuse at! I had a chat with the @Steve Bloomer's Washing team as well for their latest episode: https://soundcloud.com/user-147200653/sbw-94-Derby-county-2000-2020
 
Cheers,
Ryan

Happy Friday one and all!
I should probably apologise in advance as I feel a little bit spammy, but I'm pretty excited to say that Pride (or Pride: The Inside Story of Derby County in the 21st Century to give it the full, far too long name) will be available from the club shop and online from this weekend!
Link - https://www.dcfcmegastore.co.uk/item/2865/Books/Pride-Na.html
For those who don't know, Pride is a project I've been working on for around three years in total, and it's seen me work with just over 60 former players, managers, chairmen, coaches and #ITK fans to tell the tale of the club from the moment we moved into Pride Park until the beginning of this year. It's not really a game by game account, it's more of a focus on each season, the on-field and off-field dramas (even the crash), all told by those who lived it from the inside. So to put the 60 people into context, it varies from the likes of Stefano Eranio, Steve McClaren and Warren Barton through to Gary Rowett, Harry Wilson, Giles Barnes, Inigo Idiakez and Jake Buxton.
The club have been extremely supportive and it's been a huge surprise to have them come on board, considering the content paints a factual tale, but they've been a huge help and it's fantastic to have them on board.
For anyone who has pre-ordered already - and a massive thank you for your interest in what began as just a daft little project to pass the time - what I'm going to recommend to people is that they cancel their pre-orders with Amazon and the likes, because hopefully money won't have been taken. Then the book will be available for around a week or two at the club and the megastore, before hitting the wider world. Unfortunately this one was out of my hands so I'm expecting a few pelters ?
I'll try not to spam too much but if anyone has any questions or comments on the book, what it's about or why certain people didn't make the cut, just reply or drop me a message. And most of all, for anyone who is keen and interested in understanding almost every major development and in-story of the club over 20+ years, I really hope you enjoy it. I'm on Twitter at @PrideDCFC where I'll be rambling to myself and sharing a few articles I've done over the past few months.
You might see/hear me a bit over the media over the next few weeks, so I'm always here to throw abuse at! I had a chat with the @Steve Bloomer's Washing team as well for their latest episode: https://soundcloud.com/user-147200653/sbw-94-Derby-county-2000-2020
 
Cheers,
Ryan

Happy Friday one and all!
I should probably apologise in advance as I feel a little bit spammy, but I'm pretty excited to say that Pride (or Pride: The Inside Story of Derby County in the 21st Century to give it the full, far too long name) will be available from the club shop and online from this weekend!
Link - https://www.dcfcmegastore.co.uk/item/2865/Books/Pride-Na.html
For those who don't know, Pride is a project I've been working on for around three years in total, and it's seen me work with just over 60 former players, managers, chairmen, coaches and #ITK fans to tell the tale of the club from the moment we moved into Pride Park until the beginning of this year. It's not really a game by game account, it's more of a focus on each season, the on-field and off-field dramas (even the crash), all told by those who lived it from the inside. So to put the 60 people into context, it varies from the likes of Stefano Eranio, Steve McClaren and Warren Barton through to Gary Rowett, Harry Wilson, Giles Barnes, Inigo Idiakez and Jake Buxton.
The club have been extremely supportive and it's been a huge surprise to have them come on board, considering the content paints a factual tale, but they've been a huge help and it's fantastic to have them on board.
For anyone who has pre-ordered already - and a massive thank you for your interest in what began as just a daft little project to pass the time - what I'm going to recommend to people is that they cancel their pre-orders with Amazon and the likes, because hopefully money won't have been taken. Then the book will be available for around a week or two at the club and the megastore, before hitting the wider world. Unfortunately this one was out of my hands so I'm expecting a few pelters ?
I'll try not to spam too much but if anyone has any questions or comments on the book, what it's about or why certain people didn't make the cut, just reply or drop me a message. And most of all, for anyone who is keen and interested in understanding almost every major development and in-story of the club over 20+ years, I really hope you enjoy it. I'm on Twitter at @PrideDCFC where I'll be rambling to myself and sharing a few articles I've done over the past few months.
You might see/hear me a bit over the media over the next few weeks, so I'm always here to throw abuse at! I had a chat with the @Steve Bloomer's Washing team as well for their latest episode: https://soundcloud.com/user-147200653/sbw-94-Derby-county-2000-2020
 
Cheers,
Ryan

Happy Friday one and all!
I should probably apologise in advance as I feel a little bit spammy, but I'm pretty excited to say that Pride (or Pride: The Inside Story of Derby County in the 21st Century to give it the full, far too long name) will be available from the club shop and online from this weekend!
Link - https://www.dcfcmegastore.co.uk/item/2865/Books/Pride-Na.html
For those who don't know, Pride is a project I've been working on for around three years in total, and it's seen me work with just over 60 former players, managers, chairmen, coaches and #ITK fans to tell the tale of the club from the moment we moved into Pride Park until the beginning of this year. It's not really a game by game account, it's more of a focus on each season, the on-field and off-field dramas (even the crash), all told by those who lived it from the inside. So to put the 60 people into context, it varies from the likes of Stefano Eranio, Steve McClaren and Warren Barton through to Gary Rowett, Harry Wilson, Giles Barnes, Inigo Idiakez and Jake Buxton.
The club have been extremely supportive and it's been a huge surprise to have them come on board, considering the content paints a factual tale, but they've been a huge help and it's fantastic to have them on board.
For anyone who has pre-ordered already - and a massive thank you for your interest in what began as just a daft little project to pass the time - what I'm going to recommend to people is that they cancel their pre-orders with Amazon and the likes, because hopefully money won't have been taken. Then the book will be available for around a week or two at the club and the megastore, before hitting the wider world. Unfortunately this one was out of my hands so I'm expecting a few pelters ?
I'll try not to spam too much but if anyone has any questions or comments on the book, what it's about or why certain people didn't make the cut, just reply or drop me a message. And most of all, for anyone who is keen and interested in understanding almost every major development and in-story of the club over 20+ years, I really hope you enjoy it. I'm on Twitter at @PrideDCFC where I'll be rambling to myself and sharing a few articles I've done over the past few months.
You might see/hear me a bit over the media over the next few weeks, so I'm always here to throw abuse at! I had a chat with the @Steve Bloomer's Washing team as well for their latest episode: https://soundcloud.com/user-147200653/sbw-94-Derby-county-2000-2020
 
Cheers,
Ryan

Good afternoon DCFCFans!
Rams Review Season Preview Podcast with The Derby County Blog
 
Our Season Preview Podcast has just been posted! We are joined by The Derby County Blog!
- Where will Derby finish?
- Favorites for promotion?
- Barrow review
Plus score predictions for Reading & Preston 
Give it a listen and share it around. And please let us know your comments. And rate us (if we've earned your rating!) We truly appreciate all the support! 

Been on anxiety medication since October, those that I speak to and see on here will know the difference it’s made to my life.
Booked my first holiday abroad since I was 16 ish in October, today had my first hypnotherapy appointment through Zoom from a Derby fan on Twitter who is a councillor and hypnotherapist, was a little sceptical about it all, but it was actually very good.
It’s not like you see on TV where they have you barking on stage like a dog, she runs you through past experiences in your head and asks you to visualise past events and places you in a 3rd person perspective. It’s hard to explain but I came off feeling strangle a little “high” if that makes sense, really relaxed and it’s quite bizarre. 
If you’re willing to embrace it and go with it, I can see it being quite rewarding, definitely will be continuing with it.

Hi guys! We just released our latest episode!
In this one we sit down with former DCFC GK Ian Feuer and discuss his career in the game!
Rams Review Meets Ian Feuer
 
- His Premier League dream
- His time at Derby, Luton and West Ham
- The development of MLS
- Working with Beckham at LA Galaxy
- His acting career (yep, you read that correctly!)
 
Please give it a listen, if you can! And if you have any thoughts or comments, please let me know! And please rate the podcast (if we've earned your rating!)

Now then ladies and gentleman... firstly I hope you are all well and secondly sorry for the mother of rants which is about to unfold...
As some may be aware from the ‘new parents’ thread I made last year I am lucky enough to now be the father of the most incredible little lady this planet has ever seen, also from that thread some of you may be aware that the pregnancy wasn’t all plain sailing. 
Unfortunately neither does the living side seem to be. Our daughter had corrective surgery to save her life at 1 day old... in the next 44 days before coming home she would go on to have 5 collapsed lungs, 2 cardiac arrests, 1 blood transfusion, 7 ventilations, 2 more surgeries and numerous amount of pain relief/medication.
last Friday though everything was brilliant and me and my wife were finally able to bring her home... the next few days were the best of my life and something that we were robbed of for the first month and a half of her life, we had numerous visitors and for to introduce her to her family.
on Tuesday we went to the park with our other daughter as quite understandably she was quite overwhelmed and a bit jealous about her new little sister... whilst at the park I was feeding Clara-Leisa who subsequently stopped breathing and vomited blood through her mouth and nose. I had to do CPR in the middle of the park on her as the air ambulance (absolutely amazing) and 2 road ambulances turned up. 
Thankfully I managed to get her breathing again and the incredible paramedics and drs kept her going and she’s on the mend.
i don’t really know the purpose of this post but just felt it would possibly help to have a Release.
photo’s included of how she is today as I realise what I’ve written is traumatic and we could be a lot worse... 

Added this beauty today, sorted by masons dad for me, love the “once a ram “ one of the great future stars of the English game it was a privilege seeing him cut his teeth in a Derby County shirt ! 

Hi Guys! 
 
Our latest episode is out now! We discuss today's game against Preston and talk with the lads behind the #FlagForAndre campaign.
Please give it a listen and let me know your thoughts! 
 
Preston Chat and Flag For Andre update

The old boy fell asleep this morning for the last time.
14 years old, RIP Bruno, the loveliest, friendliest, daftest dog you could wish for ?
 

Seems like a good time to drop this one out especially with the heading of the thread, it will be a few more weeks yet, aiming for the end of the season to give everybody something to fill the boring weeks in between with !
When it’s ready I will expect a rush of orders ! I am obviously biased but I am really pleased with it, a comprehensive book about every one of our shirts, badges, sponsors and a few juicy bits of gossip and a genuine re write of the history books with he expertise of Andy Ellis and Jason Shardlow.

Jim Walker the forgotten man
As many of you know I have been for the last 18 months meeting up with the old brigade, the proper DCFC legends, the ones that put us on the map in footballing terms, the ones that made us the best team in England and got us to the European Cup semi finals, the teams of 71/72 and 74/75.
It started off as way to spend time with my Dad who was a bit lost after the loss of my mum, he is a season ticket holder now and was back in the day so I started off out on a journey that has lead us to meet most of them, one of them remains elusive and one didn’t wish to participate.
All of them have been fantastic, eager to tell stories of the great Brian Clough and the amazing fortunes of Derby County who in those bleak years of three day weeks, power blackouts, strikes and Rolls Royce nearly going under taking thousands of local jobs with it gave the people of Derby something to be proud of.
Upon meeting one of those legends, Jim Walker I was particularly struck by how at peace he was with the world, very relaxed, very friendly and by far the best story teller of them all.
Jim had not long ago lost his wife to illness so immediately him and my dad had something in common other than the love of football, he made us very welcome and gave us an open invite to go round when ever to continue with the tales.
Now most people may remember Jim as the guy who was signed by Clough & Taylor from non league football to play for Derby County and was a major part of the team that won promotion from division two in 1968/69.
He lost his place in the team to John Mcgovern but captained the reserves and stepped in when required to cover injuries of suspensions, this meant that he played only a few games in the 1971/72 season but it was his goal in a 1-0 win against Crystal Palace in late march that gave Derby both points and if you remember we won the league and finished first above dirty Leeds who were just one point behind and had a greater goal difference, so in effect Jim scored the goal that won us the First Division Championship.
Aswell as a footballer Jim is probably better known as the Aston Villa physio, he was there for around twenty years and served under many managers including Graham Taylor, Ron Atkinson, Brian Little and John Gregory, he was also the man charged with looking after Paul McGrath for many years both on and off the pitch and is spoken of in very high regard in Pauls autobiography.
He had a private practice at the Belfry for the golfers and was also the go to man at the NEC when any pop stars suffered an injury or needed attention from a physio, he worked with George Michael, Elton John, Neil Diamond, Michael Hutchence and Kylie to name a few hence him having so many fantastic stories.
Jim has also had illnesses this however does not dampen his spirit or take a smile from his face.
One thing that I was amazed to hear that Jim did not receive a medal for winning the league title despite being only one of sixteen players in that 71/72 season to have donned the shirt and scoring such a valuable goal.
When ever you see the pictures of the team celebrating and holding up their medals jim does not have one.
I approached Andy Ellis the club historian and the writer of many Derby County books and the fount of all knowledge and he confirmed it.
So we the approached the club and asked if they would support an application to Gordon Taylor of the PFA to ask if he would inturn support an application to the football league to present Jim with the medal that he should have received 46 years ago.
The club agreed and they sent the letter to Gordon Taylor who gave it his blessing and the approach was then made to the football league, this was back in February this year after the ball was started rolling in June of 2017 so it took a while.
I am delighted to say that the agreement was given and Derby County approached the very same jewellers who had made the original ones to make one for Jim, to the exact specifications of the original medals and in the same box and made from 9ct gold with all of the hall marks.
For some reason the club at this time can not be seen to publicly present Jim with the medal which is a great sadness as I thought that he was going to be able to step out on the pitch at Pride Park on the opening home game against Leeds (quite fitting as he stopped them winning the league with his goal), it is a litigious matter so I will comment no further other than to say that they did everything that they could.
So to wrap up the story I had the great honour of going to Jims house today with my dad and my son and presenting him with his long overdue medal, he had no idea that it was coming and to say that he was over whelmed is an understatement.
It was great to see his face and to have the privilege to do something like that, I had the medal at my house for a while but obviously didn’t want to post any pictures until now as it was a secret.
Not very often that you get to present a league championship winning medal on behalf of Derby County and to one of the few from those great days and can be called the legends.
We are hoping that Jim will still be able to have amore public presentation at sometime in the season at Pride Park when what ever issues are resolved.
Up the Rams !!
 

Apologies for the late reply. 
Not really improved I'm afraid. I've been doing a few different things and am currently on no medication, I just don't have a clue what's wrong with me. I was diagnosed with Depression and Anxiety back a couple of months ago but having looked online, I'm pretty certain I have OCD too - a nice little collection of issues!
Have gone from the intrusive thoughts about no end of things - relationship mainly - with a load of anxiety, to not feeling that anxiety anymore. I know they're not true but having battled it for two months, things are pretty dark at the minute. I'm finding myself get more and more irritated by everyone around me, including my girlfriend unfortunately. I've done a great job at isolating myself from all friendships and keeping myself firmly to myself. 
Still seeing a counsellor once a week but don't feel that delving back into my childhood is solving anything whatsoever. Trying to get anything done through the NHS is proving difficult and I'm just finding myself in a never ending rut of waking up feeling ok, then quickly going further downhill throughout the rest of the day. Constantly find myself living in my own brain, worrying about things, convincing myself I'm living a lie in the relationship. I've come across a form of OCD that targets this particularly and recognise I've probably suffered from general OCD for years without thinking much of it. 
Hope everyone else is doing ok. 

Been a while since I contributed to this thread and things have changed just a tiny bit since I did back in January.
Diagnosed with depression by the doctor back at the start of April and put on Fluoxetine. I've been going through counselling talking therapy sessions as well, stupidly thinking things would turn around quickly.
Unsurprisingly they're not and since starting medication, I've felt even worse. I've had horrible feelings of guilt which have been racking my brain and body on a daily basis. Countless times a day I'll break down in tears no matter where I am, just struggling to comprehend the mess I've got myself into. Broke my own record today with seven separate trips to the bathroom stalls.
I've got a girlfriend who I love to bits and she knows everything I'm going through and is being incredibly supportive. But over the last few days, I've noticed that I don't really feel anything when it comes to love or passion. I've read about the side effects of Anti-depressants and how they can take away emotions and feelings and I'm terrified they're going to ruin the best thing I have ever had with her - all because I'm not thinking properly.
My mind is constantly telling me I'm a bad person and regularly makes things up to further put the point across. These I could just about deal with, but it's as if it's trying to now turn me against the person I love the most. I've vowed to come off the medication because they've made me feel worse than I ever imagined I could - suicidal thoughts and feelings of worthlessness. I've been on them for six weeks and can't face them for a day more before I do or say something stupid. For me personally, I'd rather take the feelings I had before than have my own mind lie to me and feel nothing.
It's a really strange situation to be in is depression. I always thought it was something that was easily treatable - "oh it's only the mind, it's easy to control" sort of thing. I now realise mental illnesses are the most horrendous things you can get. Has anybody else had these sort of side effects from the pills?

Thanks for the messages all. I've got an appointment tomorrow AM with my doctor which will hopefully add a bit of clarity to things. I knew I was coming down with depression in around December time but left it until April to get the diagnosis. The sadness I could deal with but the intrusive thoughts and doubts about my relationship are something different altogether. I've felt absolutely empty all day today and just don't know how to get better.
I've got people around me to speak to and am seeing a counsellor but as of yet, nothing's really changed. I don't really know what depression feels like exactly but I think there might be a few more issues than just that unfortunately. I've got a girlfriend I love to bits who loves me and will be there for me, I just pray I don't end up forcing her away and ruining everything.

Thanks for the messages all. I've got an appointment tomorrow AM with my doctor which will hopefully add a bit of clarity to things. I knew I was coming down with depression in around December time but left it until April to get the diagnosis. The sadness I could deal with but the intrusive thoughts and doubts about my relationship are something different altogether. I've felt absolutely empty all day today and just don't know how to get better.
I've got people around me to speak to and am seeing a counsellor but as of yet, nothing's really changed. I don't really know what depression feels like exactly but I think there might be a few more issues than just that unfortunately. I've got a girlfriend I love to bits who loves me and will be there for me, I just pray I don't end up forcing her away and ruining everything.

Thanks for the messages all. I've got an appointment tomorrow AM with my doctor which will hopefully add a bit of clarity to things. I knew I was coming down with depression in around December time but left it until April to get the diagnosis. The sadness I could deal with but the intrusive thoughts and doubts about my relationship are something different altogether. I've felt absolutely empty all day today and just don't know how to get better.
I've got people around me to speak to and am seeing a counsellor but as of yet, nothing's really changed. I don't really know what depression feels like exactly but I think there might be a few more issues than just that unfortunately. I've got a girlfriend I love to bits who loves me and will be there for me, I just pray I don't end up forcing her away and ruining everything.

Thanks for the messages all. I've got an appointment tomorrow AM with my doctor which will hopefully add a bit of clarity to things. I knew I was coming down with depression in around December time but left it until April to get the diagnosis. The sadness I could deal with but the intrusive thoughts and doubts about my relationship are something different altogether. I've felt absolutely empty all day today and just don't know how to get better.
I've got people around me to speak to and am seeing a counsellor but as of yet, nothing's really changed. I don't really know what depression feels like exactly but I think there might be a few more issues than just that unfortunately. I've got a girlfriend I love to bits who loves me and will be there for me, I just pray I don't end up forcing her away and ruining everything.

Thanks for the messages all. I've got an appointment tomorrow AM with my doctor which will hopefully add a bit of clarity to things. I knew I was coming down with depression in around December time but left it until April to get the diagnosis. The sadness I could deal with but the intrusive thoughts and doubts about my relationship are something different altogether. I've felt absolutely empty all day today and just don't know how to get better.
I've got people around me to speak to and am seeing a counsellor but as of yet, nothing's really changed. I don't really know what depression feels like exactly but I think there might be a few more issues than just that unfortunately. I've got a girlfriend I love to bits who loves me and will be there for me, I just pray I don't end up forcing her away and ruining everything.

Thanks for the messages all. I've got an appointment tomorrow AM with my doctor which will hopefully add a bit of clarity to things. I knew I was coming down with depression in around December time but left it until April to get the diagnosis. The sadness I could deal with but the intrusive thoughts and doubts about my relationship are something different altogether. I've felt absolutely empty all day today and just don't know how to get better.
I've got people around me to speak to and am seeing a counsellor but as of yet, nothing's really changed. I don't really know what depression feels like exactly but I think there might be a few more issues than just that unfortunately. I've got a girlfriend I love to bits who loves me and will be there for me, I just pray I don't end up forcing her away and ruining everything.

Sounds a horrible time for you right now.
I hope that in time you will appreciate what your girlfriend and others see in you.
In the meantime please be honest with your counsellor about how you truly feel as well as telling your GP because it sounds like your medication needs to be reviewed.

You need to see your doctor asap, and tell them honestly how you're feeling. 
Show them this post, if you can't face telling him, the fact is there are many different types of drug that can help in your situation, what's right for one is wrong for another, hopefully they can help you find an even keel, but if they don't know they can't help.
Good luck.