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@Norman not sure if you realise it, but your post has probably given everyone involved in this thread, and maybe some lurkers who have yet to post, a bit of a boost.
Not because of your sadness or situation, but because it's had a positive effect. You may not notice straight away, but just posting it, and seeing it written down will improve your thinking. Awareness is a big part of some sort of recovery/coping process.
More positive than that is that people feeling similar will have related, and read the very excellent responses you have, especially the amazing post written by @ilkleyram. 
If this thread has taught us anything, it's that nobody, whilst feeling alone, is alone in feeling overwhelming levels of sadness and other bad or negative feelings.
I triggered this thread, and I feel very proud that I opened something up that people felt comfortable enough to bare their souls in, and I know a lot of people have helped each other. It's probably my 2nd best achievement, (the best being the time I farted in the gym showers and a soap bubble floated from my arse towards a passing steroid freak  ).
Above all, NEVER feel ashamed, embarrassed or apologetic about your feelings, as has been said, YOU are important to you, and you probably don't realise how important you are to others. Never feel that coping is beyond you either.
Good luck from fellow strugglers of all levels x

I've been through no end of forums dedicated to mental health and the likes but nothing comes close to this, it really sets this forum apart from any other I know. So therefore, having read everyone else's stories over the last few months and after finally acknowledging I have an issue, I will now pour everything out.
I've known for years that something has been wrong with me, but the last few days have just certified it. I'm 22, recently graduated and have now moved back home as I have a graduate job close to my family home. The issue with this is I'm not exactly mad about the job, the people are not the most welcoming and all of my previous school friends and the likes now live away. I go to work and I go home, that is as exciting as it gets. 
Last year saw a range of little blips come up which I didn't think affected me too much, with my uncle's dementia and constant hospital stays probably the most notable. What's really done it for me though is the relationship with my girlfriend, who is still at university. I've been with her for three years and it's been great (she's even seen Derby play twice the lucky thing) but a mixture of the distance and the loneliness has changed things to the point where she's told me that she's not sure if we're still working like we did. I've found myself becoming needy, completely ignoring the fact that she's got her own life with new friends and a part-time job. We planned to build a life together after uni and I'm hoping that can still be done because even though we're only young, it's been an incredible time that I don't think needs to be given up. I'm trying to tell myself that it's the fact we've gone from living together to living 80 miles apart, with only a few months until we can go back to how we were. Unfortunately, my head doesn't really want to listen to what I say for too long. 
I don't know if depression or anxiety or just general loneliness is my problem, but I do know that I'm not meant to be feeling like this, especially at such a young age. I've got a doctors appointment booked for next week which I'm strangely looking forward to, purely to try and change things around. I know in comparison to others my problems might be nothing and I apologise if I seem dramatic or anything but it just seems after months and months of trying to contain everything, it's all just come to a head now. I've been able to speak to my parents and girlfriend over the last few days which has at least helped. This has been a very soppy post and as such I apologise to anyone who has managed to read it all the way through! 
 

Hopefully I'm not too much of a burden to the people following this thread, but as a fairly regular reader, barely ever poster I thought I would finally contribute
Coming out of 2016, I can safely say it was the worst year of my life so far. Yes, time is arbitary, and the 365 days of 2017 aren't guaranteed to be any better, but it does provide a spell of time to quantify my feelings. 
I've suffered family loss, the break up of a relationship with the person I loved more than anyone else, the months of getting over her only for her to get in touch and subsequently mess me around whilst seeing someone else that she's now in a relationship with. 
All of this combined with being stuck in a job I hate and am probably overqualified for lead me to the pint of self destruct. 
During all this time I had to persuade myself (and take the advice of the people that care about me) to go to the doctors and speak to someone, and admit that the depressive feelings I had had been there for 6/7 years. What I thought was just part of my personality, who I was, was actually an underlying issue that needed addressing for years. 
The prescribed medication seemed to help me quite a lot. Whether that was purely a placebo effect or not is anyone's guess, but I wholeheartedly advise anyone feeling low to find someone to console in.
I guess, other than being able to get some stuff off my chest, that is the overriding point of this post. Don't ever allow yourself to feel like you're alone. There are so many resources available to help you and so many people that will understand
 
 
 

Merry Christmas everyone. I'm some where snowy.

Rebumping this thread. Getting ready for Christmas Eve dinner 

Looks like it was spooked and has bolted.

I think we'all bypass him

Nice to see the Czech Agents have found the forum... ;-)
Much rather see Lowe continue his development ( Plus we have Olsson / Fozzy / Stabana waiting in the wings)
And ill pass on the 27 year old Czech lower league, well travelled, journeyman as well

I honestly thought nobody watched any of that shide. Was shocked to go into my work's Sheffield office and hear all the women talking about it, like it matters. Essex, Chelsea, Gogglebox... I can honestly say I've not seen a single minute of any. 

I honestly thought nobody watched any of that shide. Was shocked to go into my work's Sheffield office and hear all the women talking about it, like it matters. Essex, Chelsea, Gogglebox... I can honestly say I've not seen a single minute of any. 

Find another job @Ashz09, even if it's paying less in the short term, you spend 1/3 of your life there, no point if it makes you so unhappy you can't enjoy the rest of your time.
If you're as good at your job as you think, and I'm sure you are, it will soon be recognised under a decent employer, even if you have to take a short term drop.
Most employers are decent, don't let your experience in your current employer make you think all firms are the same.
The worst thing to do in your situation would be to stay put for the money, take anything that allows you to live to the minimum standard you can tolerate, and be happier in yourself. 
One last thing, when you hand your notice in, and they offer you more money to stay, tell them to ********, if you're worth it now you were worth it a week ago!

About 10 years ago I had a lad of about 14 years knock on the door, trick or treating - mid October. No costume or nothing.
I said you're way too early and he said he knew but he was going on holiday so couldn't go on the right day.
Safe to say I politely turned him away.

I get peed off on Amazon when I'm looking for something, see it has good reviews but then when I read them, all the 5 star ones are posted by people who have been "given the product in return for an impartial revew". Yeah, right.
The reviews for Veet for men are always good for a chuckle, though....
https://www.amazon.co.uk/Veet-Men-Hair-Removal-Cream/dp/B000KKNQBK/ref=sr_1_3_a_it?ie=UTF8&qid=1478075958&sr=8-3&keywords=men+hair+removal+cream
 

What's wrong with dumping them at the side of the road like a normal person?

As long as you don't mind sony losing your bank details.

The bigger the cushion, the better the pushin'

Tssssk you ****** that joke up. You're supposed to say "but then on the other hand"

Don't apologise to him, on the bright side his knob looks massive half the time.

This might have been mentioned being as we're on page 91 but I can't remember.
Petrol Stations with mini supermarkets. Can't speak for the promised land but down here the staff are obsessed with replenishing the shelves. They can see a long queue has built up but it's nah, I'm stacking shelves. **** the shelves, serve your customers you *****.
People who it seems do their weekly shopping at the aforementioned petrol station leaving their car on the pumps...BASTURTS. I really hope one of them gets a puncture and their ice cream melts all over their shopping or something else that inconveniences them.....like spontaneous combustion. 
 

Men's voices on satnavs. It just seems so much more natural to be constantly told what to do by a woman.

As long as you don't mind sony losing your bank details.

As long as you don't mind sony losing your bank details.

Looks like it was spooked and has bolted.

Looks like it was spooked and has bolted.