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I didn't see it but I watched Kell Brook and I can't imagine Brook v Khan being interesting to anyone outside Sheffield anymore. 

It's a great thread. 
The problem with talking to friends and family is illustrated by this thread.
There isn't one person who knows all the coping mechanisms. 
Trying to say how you feel is much harder than writing it down. 
When people spill it out in this thread it resonates with some folks but not others. But seeing someone spill their thoughts and seeing others pick up the pieces is quite a special thing. It's a beautiful thread. An utterly fecking miserable and heartbreaking kind of beauty. 
I'd like to think there's enough people knocking around here to help those that need an team talk.

Watching Gavin and Stacey last night. I nearly got kicked out because I started shouting at people trying to talk all the way through. Absolutely fuming I was Gav.

We've had one good day since the 12th December which luckily was yesterday and we feel very blessed for that on the most festive of days. The wife is far from 100% today and I came down with a sickness bug in the night. What a Christmas! Now to attempt a day at work tomorrow.

So, yer mam dies in her early 40's, when you are 16.  2 years later, yer dad dies, still in his 40's, albeit 49.  This leaves you, as an 18 year old only boy, 3 elder sisters (21, 24 & 27), and the baby of the bunch, little sis who is still only 9 at this stage.
I guess what happens next is you start to wonder... will I manage to live a bit longer than my parents?... who will be the first sibling to cop it... and when!
Those thoughts have never left me.  4 of us have since lived longer than our parents, thankfully.  Baby sis has now lived longer than mum, and is closing in on the age dad was, so all good there, I guess.
I have to admit, on the day I equalled Dad's age, I was a little bit emotional, if truth be told.  Relief?  Guilt?  No idea, but it was a weird feeling!
But the one thing I have literally been dreading since being left an "orphan"... over 39 years ago now... is the first of us siblings going. 
...It happened last night! 

The sister up from me (so the third eldest) lasted until she was 60.... and two months.  I guess we shouldn't moan, given the family history, but I can't describe the gut-wrenching feeling, now the first one of us has gone!  This is the day I have been dreading for over 39 bloody years!
Depressed?  No.  Not in the true sense.
Anxious?  You bet!
Stress?  Not yet, but I'm sure that will come, as we try and help our 24 year old nephew (Sis's only child) through the next few days, weeks, and maybe even years.  Lot's to do.  Lot's to sort out.  Him and us.  There's no-one else to do it!
The first of my siblings gone... out of the blue... no warning!  Suddenly, I no longer feel immortal!
Eldest sis (67 next month) is feeling guilty, not being the first to go!
Baby sis is distraught, and now has to face her first close-relative mourning since becoming a 9 year old orphan!
Being old fashioned, I feel the need to take the lead.  To be practical.  The only boy, and all that!  Time to become a man!  Time to take charge, I guess, and stay strong for my remaining 3 sisters, and my nephew... but I can't help but feel vulnerable this morning, if truth be told.
Thankfully, I have the strongest, most wonderful wife tight by my side, so all is not lost!
I'm sure I'm not the first to lose a sibling, of course, but right now, feeling the way I do, a feeling I've never experienced before, is daunting to say the least.
It feels different to losing a parent.  It feels different to losing a granddaughter at 1 hour old.  Maybe not worse.  Maybe not easier.  But closer, I guess.  More frightening.  Too close for comfort!
Not looking for sympathy.  Just an ear.  Just a shoulder to lean on.  I may be back, I may not.  Having not been through this particular emotion, I really don't know what happens next!
 
PS:
Yes... yesterday's game really was poo, wasn't it!
 

I've had some issues and posted a little about my late wife's cancer, ultimately being bereaved, the struggles I had to cope as a single dad of bereaved children and how it nearly finally broke me and how hard it hit me when my dog got sick this summer. 
I thought I'd just share that I met a lovely widowed lady my age a couple of months ago, and she makes me happy. I make her happy. We're a couple now. Things can and do get better, no matter what life throws at you, you can smile again. Hang in there people.

I actually prefer it with no commentary, at least without the commentary from the sky team because they’re all always incredibly biased, Johnny nelson, Adam Smith, Tony Bellew, Carl Froch, the lot of them. It wasn’t so much a problem in this fight because we all knew AJ deserved to win but they always let their bias get in the way of their commentary. Bellew said a few weeks ago that Canelo will be terrified of Callum Smith after his masterclass against Ryder, when anyone who saw that fight, would say that Ryder battered Callum Smith. 
 
They should introduce Pauli malignaggi more, he’s always the only one who is unbiased. I can’t remember which fight it was, it might have been Usyk v Bellew but Pauli actually called the rest of the commentary team about their BS because they were over scoring the scorecards and said we shouldn’t be looking to give him rounds just because he’s British and you want him to him.
 

No great fan of Wilder's as the man has far more chat than technical ability, but he does have the heaviest hands in the game right now. Ruiz is very durable but far from mobile, especially when he's tipping the scales at over 20 stone. Wilder lays him out for me and Ruiz would struggle to lay a glove on Fury whom whilst lacking the power of Wilder and AJ, has more technical ability than either of them. For the time being, Ruiz is on the outside with no obvious fast route back in.

In a pub with no comms and looked a draw from my seat. 
Decent fight. 

He might, but it's not fair to call the rest bums. The heavy weight division is looking the most competitive it has for some time. 

Bravo!!! 
Perfect performance!!

I just came on here to post this too. 
Always though Windass was a lager lout who just had natural talent. A pub player that somehow worked out at the high levels. 
But what a top fella. 
And Tyson is as mad as they come and I think it's great that he's accepted as he is. He says and does some odd things in the boxing world and he was always kind of made to stand by them. But now i think people largely accept that he has pretty vulnerable mental health and he's not perfect but he's trying. He's not a role model in the way we all think of but he's a bloke that does stupid poo and can now be allowed to make mistakes like the rest of us. 
 
 

I think Callum Smith is boring watch every time though isn't he?
Usually does his work from range and only ever seems to do enough to win and then take his foot off the gas. Like he just ticks off rounds. 
 

A day late, but Nicosia last night. 
Cracking weather so far this week, mid 20's. 
 
 

A day late, but Nicosia last night. 
Cracking weather so far this week, mid 20's. 
 
 

A day late, but Nicosia last night. 
Cracking weather so far this week, mid 20's. 
 
 

A day late, but Nicosia last night. 
Cracking weather so far this week, mid 20's. 
 
 

A day late, but Nicosia last night. 
Cracking weather so far this week, mid 20's. 
 
 

A day late, but Nicosia last night. 
Cracking weather so far this week, mid 20's. 
 
 

I thought the same but there was a good debate on Question time last night about zero contract hours.
It suits some people, some audience members spoke favourably, especially the flexibility element of them. 

Agreed although it's "This is England" not "Made in England". Every series in that franchise was excellent.

Joshua Ruiz being in Saudi Arabia is pretty unforgivable, however Eddie wants to dress it up. 

Always a great show bar series 3 where it seemed to lose it's way .  Also mentioned civil unrest in Derby and Nottingham .  Obviously Thomas Shelby knows what's happening this week .

I think Hearn should have come out and said "these guys get punched in the head for a living and they wanted Saudi Arabia because it's worth fortunes. What would you do? Joshua's not forgotten his UK fanbase and we'll be back after this"
But he's come out saying Saudi Arabia is a big player in the boxing game. That they have embraced boxing and have taken time to educate the fans. It's a global sport and he's spreading the good word. 
It's Qatar with the World Cup. They haven't built towards these events. And you don't make yourself ready by just holding the biggest there is out there. 

Funny you say that. I did the same, I walked out on Derby Mercedes and went to Leicester Mercedes instead.
The initial customer 'service' in Derby was terrible.