DarkFruitsRam7

After spending the majority of 6 years inside the house I'd like to think I know how you feel. 
It's hard, really hard and most people reading this won't understand what goes off in your head, something so normal as going to the corner shop to pick up a paper scared me to death. 
I won't ever claim to know the secret of overcoming it, for me it was almost forced through a relationship breakdown which at the time absolutely messed me up but looking back was also the best thing to have happened. I was too comfortable, no pressure to go outside so it was easy to put it off for another day. Tomorrow I'll try, tomorrow never comes.
The person that helped me the most was my ex girlfriends mum, the motivation of trying to win her daughter back helped me go down to the doctors, after going through all the surgeries on the NHS website not one would actually come out to me which is just nuts.
Other than finding out I had seriously low levels of vitamin D and my knee was knackered they were pretty much useless, tried to put me on anti depressants, the ones that were so strong they turn you into a zombie. After refusing them I was told to go away and find myself a councillor instead. 
For me taking pills to zombify myself would only mask the issue, it was a course that I wouldn't be able to just stop either, I would have to lower the dose over several months if not years. Vitamin D supplements helped boost my energy, the main source of vitamin D is the sun, I had zero. It's also been linked to SAD and why people struggle so much in the winter. How true that is I don't know. Helped me.
I won't knock the NHS as they do a lot of good but the support and treatment for mental health issues up here at least is shocking.
Now this probably isn't the best advice but what worked for me was I called a mate, opened up, told him everything, he thought I was just loved up and bombed my mates off. He was pretty surprised by everything as I kept it well hidden. Anyway, we started going to the pub, at first sat outside, he would go in, bring the drinks out. I would have half, panic, go home. 
Couple days later try again, having a mate that knew what was happening, was aware that I may suddenly start legging it home made it so much easier and he would come round unannounced some nights just to get me out. 
22nd October 2013 I had my first pint inside the pub. 
1st December 2013 me and my mate ended up in a gay bar down town, didn't realise until the cross dressing DJ got on the decks playing Take That.
[Insert a year of realising how great it is to be outside, going to the pub, seeing mates, online dating]
3rd January 2015 I went to my first Derby game again for years, Southport in the cup.
Never happened overnight, there was fairy with a wand or magic pills. Small small steps, one day at a time and if you fail one day it's ok, don't hammer yourself for it just try again the next day. I'm still not fully cured so to speak, I still have a few moments where I need to walk away and compose myself. 
Knowing what I missed out on helps drive me through each day, I'm not religious, I don't believe in after life or I will have a second chance. 6 years I've lost of my life and there won't be a day goes by that I'm not kicking myself for it. Easier said than done but don't waste another day, you will never get them back.

I don't blame you for not wanting to walk into the Brunny.

Manage to stay up for the launch, @Carl Sagan?  
Can't say I did, caught up with it this morning. Me likey. Don't think I'll be able to afford $35k, though, and knowing me I'd forget to charge it and not get to work in the morning!
 

Just me, then.

Finally found the song from the Quantum Break advert... not fussed about the game, but the cover of Come as You Are is as brilliant as it is haunting...
 

Currently playing H1Z1 (Just Survive) and notched up my 2000th hour ingame.
Apparently there is a world outside as well...

he was on about Cheltenham

The future of driving, the Tesla Model S.
Totally electric, so zero emissions. Accelerates way faster than a porsche. No engine so massive storage space as it's front and back. No rubbish like gear levers (just a control on the steering wheel). Giant touchscreen. 300+ miles on a full charge. Gets better after you buy it through over-the-air updates. Can actually drive itself, if only it were legal! Free electricity for ever, via their network of supercharger stations (there's one 10 minutes from me). So unbelievably safe, no one has ever died in an accident driving a Tesla. The Model S is the one on the left. Lovely little details, like you'll see the door handles become flush with the car when you're not using them, to lower air resistance.

 
PS Actually, I'm still saving up, but it will be mine soon - oh yes...

I was close to reviving this thread last week. Not sure why I didn't.
I confided in an aunt a few weeks ago, she was a bit upset that I'd gone through a rough period alone, and very upset with my mother, who I have no relationship with whatsoever.
A few days passed and my aunt's daughter (my cousin) sent me a lengthy text about her husband, who I really admire, but haven't seen for a while, going through a really really rough period. She echoed a lot of the advice given in here, and that thankfully, her husband is getting better.
I'd like to think I'd come through the roughest part with the introduction of more regular exercise, and knowing I can vent on here without criticism for it.
Hope you do find the first step again @SaintRam, your contribution to this thread has been noted and appreciated I can assure you.

Do it, I have played a few games with@BurtonRam7so far

I've got some very good mates I used to play command and conquer generals with. Spoke to about 8 of them constantly then and counter strike. One was a Forest fan didn't get on well at all now we're really good friends.
 
Been around 11 years we've all kept in touch. We usually play League of legends and once a year meet up for a piss up etc.
 
Gaming can be rewarding when meeting new people. Went to watch LCS in London with regards to League of Legends was a brilliant day fair to say quite a few nerds there lol.

PS4 suffered from it being a free game on PS+ but it took a good week or so for the servers to be fixed. A group of us tried to play as a party for the first couple of days after release and it couldnt matchmake or anything. 
Great game when its working though

unfortunately stuck at work til 8pm, so no idea

It's brilliant, been playing it this morning before work. Add me on there if you want a few games at some point, Srg11

Just saw someone tweet about RuneScape.
Gosh that's a blast from the past...

I watched Gone Girl last night.
Very bizarre, but a poor ending for me, what a psycho!
6/10

The Mist - TV - Horror Channel
Seen it before but thought I'd recommend it as a good Stephen King adaptation (of one of his short stories), with a strange mist full of monsters descending on a US town and the locals all trapped inside a supermarket.
Don't expect a happy ending. Seriously. Don't let that put you off either, though.
8/10

For that second one, Martian. 
I read it as..... Martin, 8/10, well worked and slightly believable. 
Well played Chrissie! Back on form!  

Rocket League launching for Xbox One next week.

anyone played the latest ping pong, the graphics are intense and the developers must have worked tirelessly for many years.

Haven't read through the others posts, but if it hasn't been mentioned, you guys need to get Star Wars Battlefront. So much fun, one of the best games i've purchased for Xbox One, no doubt. 

This is one of those my friend stories isn't it.....come on Uttox, tell us what level your farms at?

Thanks for sharing your posts SaintsRam, like others have said that took alot of courage.
I hit abit of a brick wall recently, my friend suggested dfepression but I think it's just generally feeling abit down. I've found myself drinking more, finding it harder to get up in the mornings and alot of lethargy at work. Was a big reason why I chose to sign off from my current job and look elsewhere. 
What usually makes me feel better is getting out and doing exercise, most notably sport. I've been entering competitions and the success (or even failure) from that gives me a huge raise.
II think this time of year has a big impact on alot of people, it certainly is for me; dreading Xmas. Every one of my friends/family are in serious relationships and I've been on my own for about 6 months. There's nothing worse than being the token single guy on nights out.
I'm pretty positive about what next year brings, and on the whole this has been a hugely successful year, but still doesn't sotp you feeling down in the dumps on occasion! 
EDIT: Of course following Forest can lead to bouts of extreme depression.