Alph

@Daveo recommended some vitamin b. The Xmas break was important for me as I got some sleep (was sleeping 3/4 hours per day for 3 weeks before that.)

Having two kids kept me busy and I've watched a ridiculous amount of football. Helps switch off, as does posting on here. 

While not feeling to happy about the now, I think I can cope with it. A few weeks ago I wanted a way out. Needed a way out. Now, I'd quite like an escape and that time machine but don't feel so desperate. 

Whether it was this thread, this forum, kind words from @uttoxram75, @i-Ram ,  @rynny, the vitamins, the sleep, reading the experiences of @Mafiabob, @Mostyn6, @SaintRam, @Phoenix, @Paul71, @ketteringram and everyone else who posted in here that I've read but can't keep typing @name...

it's looking less grey. 

Hope you had a good Xmas @Red_Dawn. Its a weird time of year. Some people forget their troubles and some can't cope with them at Xmas

On 20/12/2015 at 18:35, rynny said:

My grandad had alzheimers, and it was horrible. My heart goes out to anyone who has any relation or friend suffering from it. When it really kicked in with him he thought he was 21 again, (I guess it was a good time for him) he was in a home and was trying it on with all the female guests there, he was a player in his day and that was his dominant characteristic that came out.

If you want to chat about drop me a pm.

Bet it's a weird comfort that he's gone to a time he was happy? 

Mostyn,

Would you ever invite someone for Xmas day if it wasn't genuine?

I wouldn't.  It's an important day. A family day in an otherwise busy year. People are crazy busy all the other days and I can't see them messing Xmas up just to be nice.

Take the offer man. 

Bite the bullet. Take the branch.

54 minutes ago, rynny said:

My grandad had alzheimers, and it was horrible. My heart goes out to anyone who has any relation or friend suffering from it. When it really kicked in with him he thought he was 21 again, (I guess it was a good time for him) he was in a home and was trying it on with all the female guests there, he was a player in his day and that was his dominant characteristic that came out.

If you want to chat about drop me a pm.

Cheers rynny. Cheers.

Was meant to go see her tonight but I bottled it. She forgets where she lives and sometimes forgets to get undressed. 

She went walking ON the A52 one night. She was found lost in Ilkeston once and she'd walked there from Allenton where she used to live. She had her bag taken off her in Chaddesden after a late night walk. It's mad what it does to people isn't it?

See the confusion in her face when I spoke to her was surreal. She was someone I've always had in my corner.  You don't get many people that are on your team no matter what. Shame when you lose them. 

At least now she's moved house she doesn't go walking. Between carers and the fact she doesn't know where she lives it means her late night wandering is over

People say 'you made your bed now lie in it'. It's true that if you make commitments then you should see them through. Everyone would agree on that?

You can't go through life making decisions and walk away from the consequences. 

But what if you don't want to? Tough ****?

Had a pooh childhood and it was really down to my Grandma who helped me get through feeling down. But she's got Alzheimers now and I went to see her a fortnight ago and she didn't remember me. That was a blow and it just feels like it's one thing after another with what's been happening lately. 

Would love a time machine. Want to start again. But like I said, commitments 

5 hours ago, ketteringram said:

Maybe re do it? Can't possibly do any harm. 

Read it back and it didn't make any sense. 

Basically I'm in self pity mode. I recognise that. But i'm stuck with it and tbh, not arsed to dig myself out

@Phoenix,  sorry mate. 

Best wishes

Typed a load of ***** here so edited it. Mad ramblings lol. 

42 minutes ago, Mostyn6 said:

one thing this thread has taught me is that I am not alone. It provides a bizarre kind a solace to me. I perked up the other night after filling in a load of forms. It was weird.

Yeah man. I've been reading the thread but not posted because I was wanting to keep feeding off it. But then the last post was on Tuesday at 3pm and I didn't want it to get lost. 

Would like to see people keep posting. 

Cheers.

This thread is strange timing. 

I'm struggling a bit now. Not told anyone how much and I think I'm behaving pretty upbeat wherever I go. Only a few on here have met me so this is a pretty perfect place to admit it and not effect anyone I know. 

Got tears in my eyes as I type this. lol

Struggling. 

Going to get Rocket League tonight on PC. 

I've always like serious games but stuff like this and Burnout (remember those) are just ridiculously fun. 

It looks fun. Might have a look this weekend. 

It's not that bad! I thought I'd pop on, confirm how Clough is a Forest agent and our board want us in league 1.

It's actually ok. I thought I'd be off for a bit.

What's going on?

what happened to bris? Kind of miss his long paragraph posts to me if I posted something stupid...

He's having a break until November I think.

I've got a tribute for him if he comes back. I think even a man of little faith in Nigel like Bris would probably get a headache reading these Clough threads.

Give it time and Nige might have caused the holocaust.

Not enjoying the forum. At all.

Me neither. Feel like buggering off for a bit until the season has actually got going properly and then people have something worth moaning about. Feels like the worst days of the old DET in here.

Lots of knee jerk, little debate, unfair assessments (eg we beat Millwall cus they're ***** but didn't lose to Leicester cus they're good).

If we lose on Saturday I'm shooting off for a bit. Might find Bris.

Time is it? 40 past defeat?

Sideshowbob is late

It's not looking good for sausagemeat. Anybody know first aid?

Get the beers in Alpha

I've never had whiskey but I know what it's like to need one.

They ain't got no sharp objects out there have they?

Jesus Christ on a bike.

I thought the DET got closed. The reaction to EVERY defeat now is colossal. I can't wait to get back on GTA V.

No it dont , pi55 off , NO FOOTBALL TALK IN HERE !!

C'mon, I'm here now I might as well stay?

Next time my missus says I'm always moaning about Derby she wants to have a look on here!

I love moaning. But I just can't write the season off on September 2nd. Surely that gets me a place in here?

The response to the Burnley game has been crazy.

Might have to come in. We're only a handful of games in and the season is over apparently.

Apparently not breathing helps.....

X-box just crashed, fook my life!!!

Unreliable aren't they?

Stolen goods.

why did we loose?

Yes, but we almost had a shot.

Any tips for stopping snoring? I get told off every night for waking up the missus.

Is it too late to come in? They're still going. I don't think the FA Cup result went down well.