Smyth_18

Spent most of yesterday absolutely livid with the outcome. There is just no way Wilder won all rounds from 1 to 4.

Re-watched the end of the fight and thought Fury could easily have been given a 10 count.

4 hours ago, ronnieronalde said:

I'm aware there is this public wave of "speak up" if you're unwell but I'd add a word of caution to that. Be careful and be sure that the person you're speaking to is ready to handle it. Friends or bosses.

I've probably dropped hints that I'm out of work right now, although I am trying to rebuild through running my own business.

I was diagnosed with high functioning depression the year I left Poland and didn't continue treatment here in the UK, thinking I should "man up" (the worst ducking phrase in the world of male depression).

High performance anxiety means among other things that I'm very self critical no matter how well I'm performing and don't need or respond well to others criticising, especially if unwarranted.

So I'm working for my best mate, known him since we were five - over a two year period I've gone from earning 150k USD down to accepting a job with him on 24k just because I need to get back on my feet and think working with/for him is the best thing I could do. issue with that, he speaks to me (and others) like I'm a piece of poo, he ricks my balloon when I'm having great days and nothing anyone ever does is good enough, he always focusses on what hasn't been done. 

As a leader, he's everything I'm not. My view, a leader should motivate and lift those around him.

They gave me a target of 650k in sales, I wouldn't accept it. I told them to make it 1.3m - despite the fact I wouldn't get paid any extra, my bonus was 20% of salary no matter how I performed. They told me I was full of poo and wouldn't hit it, apparently I'd put my balls well and truly on the line....

I hit my targets, he wasn't happy cos most of it came from 3 NEW customers and I should focus on trying to get smaller customers as well.

One day he strolled in an 3pm and the first thing he did was hammer me in front of everyone for going to the toilet while the phone is ringing, I'm 44 I hadn't stopped all day and I needed to ask if I could go for a wee?  we have a massive argument in the office and the writing is on the wall. Anyway, I end up sending him an email handing my notice in. He ignores it. Friday afternoon, still nothing, not even an acknowledgement.

So I come to work as normal, not knowing what the duck I can do to get him to listen or talk. I end up sending him a link to an article explaining my illness and ask him if we can talk about it. telling him honestly the way he talks to me hurts.

We talk about it alright, he brings the owner of the company down, we sit in an office for two hours with him telling me I'm schizophrenic, how I'm like a woman and how I'm an analyst and not a sales person, I'm incredibly selfish and disruptive, eventually I start crying and ask him to stop, he shouts upstairs to one of my colleagues and asks him to come down to confirm that yes, I am indeed nuts.

They owed me 4.8k in bonus, due a month later  so instead of walking out, I stayed and promised I would change...I would change. ffs.

It didn't get any better and eventually ended with my best mate taking my mobile phone, my car keys and telling me to leave, when I asked if he was firing me, he said it's better for everyone that you leave, I said I'm not leaving, you need to fire me. His answer was to threaten to call the police and have me removed. I told him he was a twit and next time we were out for a pint I'd... then I shut up.

I had to walk home from the Showcase in Nottingham to Alfreton cos he wouldn't let anyone give me lift.

After a review meeting with no independent witnesses, I was fired for threatening behaviour with the entire office apparently afraid for their safety.

I now can't and don't want to trust anyone. I'm broken. As a team mate, a colleague or even a boss, I'm terrified that they are right.

Be careful who you talk to. Not everyone is understanding, a lot of people are terrified by the very thought of it.

This makes me so angry.

I work behind the Showcase cinema myself and would love to know the name of this company.

I'm the least confrontational person you could find but i would happily go in there and tear into them right now.

Followed AJ religiously from the olympics up to around the Klitschko fight. (his best performance)

Unfortunately i just can't stand him anymore or the atmosphere around his fights. People who don't have a care for boxing from week to week suddenly become experts and seem to brag by posting pictures of their TV. 'look im a big boxing fan because i've paid 20 quid to watch Anthony Joshua.'
Not to mention the amount of girls giving my phone water damage whenever his face appears.

Unfortunately, i don't think he is 'real' anymore. Everything he posts is in paid partnership with something which isn't in line with his ethos of 'staying humble'.

I really want to like him as he is brilliant. But for many reasons which aren't always his own doing, i can't stand him anymore.

2 hours ago, AshfieldRam said:

They all think they're correct,

 

I may make myself a subject of the thread by saying this, but i'm pretty sure everybody thinks they are right when they say something, otherwise they wouldn't say it?

On 04/06/2018 at 20:55, sage said:

Seeing someone being a good parent. 

This is probably my main goal in life and the trait i am most confident i have.

Wow. This is what football Is all about. Words can't describe how amazed I am by this story @loweman2

Just now, Smyth_18 said:

I call you most days.

 

see you next Tuesday

Ah very clever. I was sort of hoping for a general censor and make you guess. How embarrassing.

On 13/06/2018 at 07:50, David said:

Phones always on, no calls from you and I called you on Monday??

I call you most days.

see you next Tuesday

On 29/04/2018 at 17:44, Angry Ram said:

People who think they are perfect...

People who assume people think they're perfect just because fat people annoy them.

Fat people.

On 2/27/2018 at 19:08, Coconut said:

Sausages

Party?

On 2/6/2018 at 07:58, TigerTedd said:

This is a long thread to catch up on, so, to be honest, I haven’t. 

So I’ll tell you about my wife because a) you, or someone else, might find it interesting, and b) you, or someone else, might have some advice. 

She came home from work in an ambulance just before Christmas. She was having pains in her chest, but ignored it, then she just broke down in tears on the phone to a random customer. 

They called 111, who got a paramedic out, and cos she’s had issues with her heart before, she called an ambulance. 

Turns out it wasn’t a recurrence of her heart issue, but an anxiety attack, which can cause a pain in the chest, which feels like it’s the heart, but it’s not. 

Shes was the 5th in a team of 8 to go off with stress, including her manager. 

Thing is though, it’s not the job that has necessarily sent her over the edge. It’s the kids. 

She’s been seeing a therapist now. And moving away from her family and friends 9 years ago was bad enough. But what really kicked it off was finding out we were expecting a surprise package, just 3 or 4 months after the second (the 1st is a bit older 5 when the second was born, and an absolute god send most of the time). But two babies is hard work. 

I know this thread starts with the question, what are the signs. 

Well this really worried me, as I knew she was getting more and more stressed. She’d get up in the middle of the night, and I’d find her sat in the living room crying and contemplating the decisions that got her to this point. And crying over the guilt of sort of blaming our daughter, and therefore not being able to bond with her like she wants to (despite clearly loving her to bits). 

I’m not a great help. I’m self employed, so I’m very inconsistent. Sometimes I’m around for the school run and bath time. But sometimes I’m out til 10pm without much warning. And there’s added stress from me never really knowing what I’m gojng to earn from one week to the next.

I’d get texts from her saying she’s going punch a kid in the face soon. 

I kept thinking, it’ll get easier, and tried to reassures her that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. They’ll get slightly less dependant week after week. And she’ll be fine. 

But then I kept worrying that that is probably exactly what husbands do, right before their wife wraps the kids in the back of a car and drives into a river. I’m sure my wife would never ever contemplate that, but I bet they said the same thing. 

I did at least her recognise all was not well, and told her she should speak to the doctor  but she bever did  

So im very glad she had this break down at work. As it got her to go to the doctor and the therapist. 

Thing is, she really wants to go back to work. When she was on maternity leave, going back to work was her light at the end of the tunnel, and she really enjoyed going back. But then it started getting really stressful at work too, and that was the final straw. No sanctuary anywhere. 

A couple of weeks ago, she was scheduled to go back to work (they’ve made some changes apparently, and most people in her team have returned now), on half days, but got a chest infection. She thought, she couldn’t possibly call in sick on her first day back, so she went anyway for 2 days, and then had to call in sick on the 3rd. 

The next week she went back to work and started getting pains in her chest again. She didn’t feel mentally too stressed though. She went to the pharmacist at lunch time, who said that he should really be calling an ambulance again, if those were her symptoms. She played it down and had a return to work interview with her manager in the afternoon. 

I told her to tell her manager about it, and she sent her straight home (after she made her manager cry with all she’s been through). 

I told her that it’s like coming back after a major operation. Even if you feel okay, you still need to give it a couple of weeks after that, not just jump straight back in. 

The new plan is that she’ll take a couple of weeks off, then go back for 2 hours a day for a few weeks. I’m not sure how that’ll work. 

Now im stressing out, cos, to be honest, I’ve had a very stressful couple of years (which, to be honest, my wife has probably had a lot of it deflected into her). Now I’m desperately trying to make the next big thing happen, so she doesn’t have to go back to work, but at the same time I’m trying to pick up the slack at home to give her less to worry about, taking her out for nice lunches and things when the kids are at nursery (when I really should be working). 

Now, to add insult to injury, Nursery has shut for the day, on the one day a week we get to truly relax. No rest for the wicked!

Going through quite similar to this at the moment! and i'm sure many more are but are too afraid to admit it.

Life is one hell of a journey, but we'll get through it. Do whatever you can to release your problems. Support on this forum is fantastic!

Wow not been on the forum in a while but this thread has hit me like a train.

I'm struggling with anxiety at the moment really bad. Mainly because of work. I don't feel fulfilled at all in my role and i know i'm capable of so much. I've been trying really hard to get a new job without much luck. I really want to progress in my career and have a baby on the way who i want to provide for in the best way possible.

A big problem of mine is that i struggle to let out how i feel. There just doesn't seem to be a connection between my brain and mouth sometimes but i can write my feelings with ease.

The brain is so difficult to control!

Bastille and The 1975 are the same band.

Yawn.

Jimi Hendrix - Fire.