Carnero

I am a bit like SillyBilly although not as extreme I suspect. .. Do all the sums .. Look at the end of the road .. You can see with perfect clarity where it's all going even with a fair wind. What's the point, hell in a hand cart 
Then I remember that Dalai Lama quote .. The purpose of our lives is to be happy, and the one from I can't remember which Rock Star .. Our purpose in life is to mess about and have fun, don't listen to anyone that tells you any different. 
I am getting towards the back end of my working life, still a bit to go. Relatively stable but going to do something a bit out of left field ( for me ) .. I used to be worried about change, status, what might be, what I "should" be doing or what I could have done. Now I am looking forward to it and gunning at the prospect .. Not a lot of money but a contribution 
i am in awe of you guys that have shared your tribulations .. Keep doing it .. It's healthy. None of us is immune. Mates, even cyber mates are a huge help and want to help. I feel humble moaning about my occasional black dog days and grim pragmatic fatalism. 
Pete you are right .. The delightful daftness of excessive footy passion is a perfect example of what we should be doing. Worrying too much about Trump, Putin, pension deficits the knackered boiler and Brexit won't make us happy or enrich the one way journey that is our life. Ball, back of the net, jumping for joy most certainly does. The guy who founded Honda said "The value of your life can be determined by how many times your soul has been strired." .. So for me I want to try ( and I fail often ) to find things that stir my soul. 

Must have taken some balls to write that and put it down for all to see. Very poignant in places Ronnie.
There was only one but that stood out though for me amongst all
'Im a good lad......'
Your words not mine nor anybody else's. Use this simple phrase and build on it because there is a strong possibility that it's true. You just have to believe it more. Believe in yourself.
 

good post, working online is notorious for depression and I have now been online my entire adult life and mostly on my own, if I can give advice on what I have found out with trial and error...
never use any device, laptop or anything that radiates light an hour before going to sleep, something about the blue light removes melatonin which enables you to sleep.
buy a sad lamp, they do work.
regular exercise, just go and take a brisk walk.
talk to colleagues and try and keep it upbeat.
never take work home with you, leave it in the office.
I can talk but if I have a lot of work on I will break all these rules and my mood deepens, probably hence my negative posts
hope your ok Mostyn and please try my ideas mate because this is 20+ years research that works for me.

I'm sorry, but Martin Kuhl cannot be on that list.  To be a defensive midfielder, you had to be effective defensively.
Kuhl may have been the final piece of the jigsaw, however it was certainly not the jigsaw we had at the time!

Chris Martin from Fulham on a free transfer.

One nil. Cheers.

Bexley Rams with the one handed catch with a beer in his other hand at the cricket last month in South Africa.
The Derby Way.