RiddingsRam

In celebration of their first win of the season.

I may be one of the only people who listened to the radio Derby interview and thought, there's still a chance Mel knows what he is doing. It's a long hard road, but he knows it will end up 'ok'.
That isn't positive, more deluded optimism, but that is all I have.

Despite the stresses, strains, and reputed ill-health, as of Sunday, Mel Morris was at least alive (if not well?), and getting himself out of the house.
A thumbs up from me... and long may that continue.
 
#perspective 

Craft beer bar? 
 
you gets what you deserves. Hope the baby pukes on you! 

Babies no. But kids yeah. Would you really deprive kids the joy of panda pop and crisps with dad? You monster. 

They dont sell them mate just pies or hot dogs when I was after a burger.

My lads first game in 18 months (we were on holiday for Huddersfield) and he's absolutely buzzing ! 8 years old and not a care in the world about anything going on at the club , he knows Derby "weren't as good as they were " he just wants to get back to his roast potatoes . 

Well, it might just be temporary, but there hasn't been a full menu at the games I have been to this season. 
Plenty of soft drinks, hot drinks, beer, chocolate, pies, I think. Can't see it changing for tomorrow with the small crowd but maybe fuller catering will come back soon like the ticketing stuff.

My lads first game in 18 months (we were on holiday for Huddersfield) and he's absolutely buzzing ! 8 years old and not a care in the world about anything going on at the club , he knows Derby "weren't as good as they were " he just wants to get back to his roast potatoes . 

My lads first game in 18 months (we were on holiday for Huddersfield) and he's absolutely buzzing ! 8 years old and not a care in the world about anything going on at the club , he knows Derby "weren't as good as they were " he just wants to get back to his roast potatoes . 

Garner and Mengi and we are a CF away from mid table 

Allsop literally on about 2k at Wycombe. Cost-cutting exercise. 
Davies better than nothing, he will be our manager before long.
Number 3... Stearman or Baldock? Morrison ideally.

He took into the ‘vision’ Mel had and bought into the club. Nice to see hes still here and doing well. I still believe he’d be the man to take us forward with a bit of backing 

I'd see if he fancies another crack at it, Cocu II.

Strongest current line up for me would be 
 
                          Marshall
Byrne.       Davies.      Clarke.   Buchanan
                           Bielik
               Rooney.       Knight 
Ibe.                Lawrence.        Jozwiak
 

My springer pup Tom ! 

Ignore me , I'm just bitter ?

I started this thread 3 years ago cos I realised I was in a very low place, but wasn't sure how low I was, and how much lower I could manage. Sadly, I'm back in a similar place and have been for a month or so, except I'm struggling to find any comfort in self-awareness or knowledge that others are suffering similar.
I've tried to avoid burdening anyone with my feelings over the last month, but am hoping writing it down on here might help, so apologies in advance. I'm in a situation where I am having a daily battle with myself. These battles used to be annual, then monthly, then fortnightly, then non-existent, and they're basically a "what's the point?", and being candid, they've been a give yourself a reason to live internal conversation. The bit I'm realising is that many of my reasons are based on fantasy, ******** and delusion at the moment. Silly things like "you might fall in love and live happily ever after!"!!
What's been quite saddening, but I accept, is that friends I used to rely on can no longer be relied on for anything. Simply as they have other issues to deal with, Mortgages, Weddings, Babies, Family Illnesses, Work issues etc, so I cannot expect them to drop anything just to pander to my neediness.
I drew parallels to Ronnie's post recently, scarily so. In recent months, my only positive has been work, and knowing that I'm doing a banging quality job, or so I thought. I had the wind knocked out of my sales recently, having discovered my manager isn't actually aware of what I am doing and would quite happily see me down the road. Things came to a head, and I won a little battle (that I didn't want) to save my job. But not without a few weeks of feeling very isolated, lonely and victimised.
Over the last few years, those I consider friends have declined almost all invitations to visit or spend time with me, always with reasons I might add, but nevertheless, I've eventually began to take it personally, even if not intentional rejection. Every attempt to get together as a group is just a stressful waste of time, and the reasons they've given to not be able to attend have been quite surprising, and I've taken that as me being way down on the list of priorities.
I went off the radar a few weeks ago. Literally made myself uncontactable. Deleted Whatsapp, Snapchat etc, didn't tweet, didn't post here or anywhere else, and just worked, and went home. I cannot explain why I did this, but eventually people guilted me into getting involved in things. I wrote a lengthy explanation to 20 mates making them aware of what I was going through, and on the whole they responded supportively. I spent a few weeks trying to force myself to be more positive, but the fact that these supportive friends have just carried on being somewhat neglective and ignorant, knowing what I was feeling, has left me feeling doubly negative.
Christmas is never a great time for me, I have always felt lonely and isolated, but that doesn't usually hit me this hard. I've never felt so isolated and emotional, and pointless and worthless and demotivated for life as I do right now. I'm at the stage where the only reason I haven't ended my life is cos it would kill my grandma. She is ill as it is. I've even nearly thought it wouldn't matter as she is ill anyway, so my going wouldn't really matter.
I've recently had a mini-meltdown and told a circle of friends that I'm sick of begging for attention so I will leave them alone, and they should leave me alone. I thought that would be hurtful and I'd be sad, but I'm not. It just gives me the freedom to do what I want without any guilt. Another circle of friends are making me feel like doing similar with them, and if that happens, I will be totally isolated and friendless and the sad thing is that I think I want this.

It’s a Pointer, and he’s just having a breather after repointing the chimney. ?

Why is there a dog on the roof?

Still got your umbrella?

That's a better one of the pup actually.

That's a better one of the pup actually.

My springer pup Tom ! 

That's a better one of the pup actually.