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Don’t know why but this thread made me giggle. How did you know they were Chinese people ?. Could have been North Koreans for all you know. Takeover bid incoming from Kim Jong Un

So in other words, the Chinese Mafia? I suppose that’s one way to make the players perform on the pitch if they’re scared shitless. Lovely jubbly. Gotta hand it to Mel, he does think outside of the box

Don’t know why but this thread made me giggle. How did you know they were Chinese people ?. Could have been North Koreans for all you know. Takeover bid incoming from Kim Jong Un

That is bound to help, every little helps with FFP. 
But then again, Isis are trying to buy the league and EFL aren’t doing anything about it. Absolutely disgusting and makes a mockery of FFP ?
 
 

Don’t know why but this thread made me giggle. How did you know they were Chinese people ?. Could have been North Koreans for all you know. Takeover bid incoming from Kim Jong Un

Don’t know why but this thread made me giggle. How did you know they were Chinese people ?. Could have been North Koreans for all you know. Takeover bid incoming from Kim Jong Un

Don’t know why but this thread made me giggle. How did you know they were Chinese people ?. Could have been North Koreans for all you know. Takeover bid incoming from Kim Jong Un

Don’t know why but this thread made me giggle. How did you know they were Chinese people ?. Could have been North Koreans for all you know. Takeover bid incoming from Kim Jong Un

Old people who claim to be important and then end up crashing and injuring another person, without personally apologising to them. Then have the nerve to drive the next day in a brand new car without wearing a seatbelt ?

Underrated post of the year so far.
Nearly missed it myself.

Not his worst motoring offence though surely?
Didn't he once cut someone up in a tunnel?

Old people who claim to be important and then end up crashing and injuring another person, without personally apologising to them. Then have the nerve to drive the next day in a brand new car without wearing a seatbelt ?

Spammers or trolls, catch them early, remove the content and hit them with the ban hammer. It’s a dirty job but someone’s got to do it.

Old people who claim to be important and then end up crashing and injuring another person, without personally apologising to them. Then have the nerve to drive the next day in a brand new car without wearing a seatbelt ?

Pauli had it spot on in commentary. What an absolute joke. Glad to see Fury was still upbeat in the post match conference.  Still don’t know how Fury got up from that knockdown in the 12th round. Wilder’s face was hilarious after that. Full credit to Fury
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

I started this thread 3 years ago cos I realised I was in a very low place, but wasn't sure how low I was, and how much lower I could manage. Sadly, I'm back in a similar place and have been for a month or so, except I'm struggling to find any comfort in self-awareness or knowledge that others are suffering similar.
I've tried to avoid burdening anyone with my feelings over the last month, but am hoping writing it down on here might help, so apologies in advance. I'm in a situation where I am having a daily battle with myself. These battles used to be annual, then monthly, then fortnightly, then non-existent, and they're basically a "what's the point?", and being candid, they've been a give yourself a reason to live internal conversation. The bit I'm realising is that many of my reasons are based on fantasy, ******** and delusion at the moment. Silly things like "you might fall in love and live happily ever after!"!!
What's been quite saddening, but I accept, is that friends I used to rely on can no longer be relied on for anything. Simply as they have other issues to deal with, Mortgages, Weddings, Babies, Family Illnesses, Work issues etc, so I cannot expect them to drop anything just to pander to my neediness.
I drew parallels to Ronnie's post recently, scarily so. In recent months, my only positive has been work, and knowing that I'm doing a banging quality job, or so I thought. I had the wind knocked out of my sales recently, having discovered my manager isn't actually aware of what I am doing and would quite happily see me down the road. Things came to a head, and I won a little battle (that I didn't want) to save my job. But not without a few weeks of feeling very isolated, lonely and victimised.
Over the last few years, those I consider friends have declined almost all invitations to visit or spend time with me, always with reasons I might add, but nevertheless, I've eventually began to take it personally, even if not intentional rejection. Every attempt to get together as a group is just a stressful waste of time, and the reasons they've given to not be able to attend have been quite surprising, and I've taken that as me being way down on the list of priorities.
I went off the radar a few weeks ago. Literally made myself uncontactable. Deleted Whatsapp, Snapchat etc, didn't tweet, didn't post here or anywhere else, and just worked, and went home. I cannot explain why I did this, but eventually people guilted me into getting involved in things. I wrote a lengthy explanation to 20 mates making them aware of what I was going through, and on the whole they responded supportively. I spent a few weeks trying to force myself to be more positive, but the fact that these supportive friends have just carried on being somewhat neglective and ignorant, knowing what I was feeling, has left me feeling doubly negative.
Christmas is never a great time for me, I have always felt lonely and isolated, but that doesn't usually hit me this hard. I've never felt so isolated and emotional, and pointless and worthless and demotivated for life as I do right now. I'm at the stage where the only reason I haven't ended my life is cos it would kill my grandma. She is ill as it is. I've even nearly thought it wouldn't matter as she is ill anyway, so my going wouldn't really matter.
I've recently had a mini-meltdown and told a circle of friends that I'm sick of begging for attention so I will leave them alone, and they should leave me alone. I thought that would be hurtful and I'd be sad, but I'm not. It just gives me the freedom to do what I want without any guilt. Another circle of friends are making me feel like doing similar with them, and if that happens, I will be totally isolated and friendless and the sad thing is that I think I want this.

They aren't. The way you have been treated is appalling. As you say yourself, you know that your anxiety leads you to be hyper self critical. I do the same thing myself, so I recognise what you are saying. 
Anyone looking at that situation objectively could see that the employer has broken all the rules, and has no management skills and no basic decency. With proper representation you could probably take them to the cleaners. 
The important thing is not to lose faith in yourself. If you find it difficult to find that from within, then take support from those who know, understand and care about you. I agree with you that sometimes it isn't safe to be open about your difficulties, but the worst thing is being alone with them.
You tried to be honest and open with your employer and had that trust thrown back in your face. I hope you have others in your life who can treat you with the understanding and respect you deserve. Definitely get support, if not from friends and family, then from one of the mental health services that are there for that purpose. 
I would also say try not to put too much pressure on yourself with regard to work. I know you need to live, but the measure of your worth as a person is not in how much you earn. 

This makes me so angry.
I work behind the Showcase cinema myself and would love to know the name of this company.
I'm the least confrontational person you could find but i would happily go in there and tear into them right now.

Sorry mate I'll keep this short ,he's no mate he's a nob .You sound a decent normal guy try not to forget that. What you have described is quite prevalent in the sales environment .

I'm aware there is this public wave of "speak up" if you're unwell but I'd add a word of caution to that. Be careful and be sure that the person you're speaking to is ready to handle it. Friends or bosses.
I've probably dropped hints that I'm out of work right now, although I am trying to rebuild through running my own business.
I was diagnosed with high functioning depression the year I left Poland and didn't continue treatment here in the UK, thinking I should "man up" (the worst ducking phrase in the world of male depression).
High performance anxiety means among other things that I'm very self critical no matter how well I'm performing and don't need or respond well to others criticising, especially if unwarranted.
So I'm working for my best mate, known him since we were five - over a two year period I've gone from earning 150k USD down to accepting a job with him on 24k just because I need to get back on my feet and think working with/for him is the best thing I could do. issue with that, he speaks to me (and others) like I'm a piece of poo, he ricks my balloon when I'm having great days and nothing anyone ever does is good enough, he always focusses on what hasn't been done. 
As a leader, he's everything I'm not. My view, a leader should motivate and lift those around him.
They gave me a target of 650k in sales, I wouldn't accept it. I told them to make it 1.3m - despite the fact I wouldn't get paid any extra, my bonus was 20% of salary no matter how I performed. They told me I was full of poo and wouldn't hit it, apparently I'd put my balls well and truly on the line....
I hit my targets, he wasn't happy cos most of it came from 3 NEW customers and I should focus on trying to get smaller customers as well.
One day he strolled in an 3pm and the first thing he did was hammer me in front of everyone for going to the toilet while the phone is ringing, I'm 44 I hadn't stopped all day and I needed to ask if I could go for a wee?  we have a massive argument in the office and the writing is on the wall. Anyway, I end up sending him an email handing my notice in. He ignores it. Friday afternoon, still nothing, not even an acknowledgement.
So I come to work as normal, not knowing what the duck I can do to get him to listen or talk. I end up sending him a link to an article explaining my illness and ask him if we can talk about it. telling him honestly the way he talks to me hurts.
We talk about it alright, he brings the owner of the company down, we sit in an office for two hours with him telling me I'm schizophrenic, how I'm like a woman and how I'm an analyst and not a sales person, I'm incredibly selfish and disruptive, eventually I start crying and ask him to stop, he shouts upstairs to one of my colleagues and asks him to come down to confirm that yes, I am indeed nuts.
They owed me 4.8k in bonus, due a month later  so instead of walking out, I stayed and promised I would change...I would change. ffs.
It didn't get any better and eventually ended with my best mate taking my mobile phone, my car keys and telling me to leave, when I asked if he was firing me, he said it's better for everyone that you leave, I said I'm not leaving, you need to fire me. His answer was to threaten to call the police and have me removed. I told him he was a twit and next time we were out for a pint I'd... then I shut up.
I had to walk home from the Showcase in Nottingham to Alfreton cos he wouldn't let anyone give me lift.
After a review meeting with no independent witnesses, I was fired for threatening behaviour with the entire office apparently afraid for their safety.
I now can't and don't want to trust anyone. I'm broken. As a team mate, a colleague or even a boss, I'm terrified that they are right.
Be careful who you talk to. Not everyone is understanding, a lot of people are terrified by the very thought of it.

Pauli had it spot on in commentary. What an absolute joke. Glad to see Fury was still upbeat in the post match conference.  Still don’t know how Fury got up from that knockdown in the 12th round. Wilder’s face was hilarious after that. Full credit to Fury
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

Pauli had it spot on in commentary. What an absolute joke. Glad to see Fury was still upbeat in the post match conference.  Still don’t know how Fury got up from that knockdown in the 12th round. Wilder’s face was hilarious after that. Full credit to Fury
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

Absolutely shocking decision. Tyson won that and it wasn't close. Fixed for the rematch.

It will be very tough for him to remain unbeaten in that division. Lennox Lewis lost to Hasim Rahman in a routine defence that had next to no appeal. 
He has improved massively since Wlad though. He improves a lot after tough fights. Wilder should have taken him on by now because he's learning so much and he's gone well beyond the powerful counter puncher we saw 3 years ago. He isn't reckless with his energy since the Wlad fight. He's getting hit a lot now. He developed a good jab after the Wlad and Takam fights. He started changing up his guard against Povetkin. You can guarantee that they'll get to work on his footwork after this fight too. He got caught feet planted a couple of times and it's provided the perfect lesson for the Wilder fight. 
At 22 fights old and 28 years of age he will dominate the division. Whether he takes a couple of defeats on the chin or not who knows. But it doesn't look like he's going to be far from world title fights for a very long time. Sure to leave a Lennox Lewis impact at bare minimum 
 

Joshua’s changed my mind, 2 years ago I thought he was overrated and relied on nothing but his power. I thought that he was an ok boxer but nothing much apart and would be exposed in the latter rounds which is why I thought he’d be exposed against the likes of Parker, Klitchscho etc. I guess you could call me a Joshua hater then.  Now I think he’s the real deal. I can’t see anyone beating him. Fury a few years ago probably would be very close but I can’t ever see him ever getting back to that level. I can see Joshua going unbeaten his whole boxing heavyweight career and retire within 5 years before making a transfer to mma(which he’s spoken about in the past).